Which conversation

This is what I wish I had said to her instead of the shit that caused all the arguments.
This is how I wish the conversation had gone, instead of the way it did go.
This is actually what happened and what was said, but I can’t understand why she decided to leave.

Confused yet? Not as confused as me.
Never as confused as me.

“Oh shitpipes!”
“What?”
“I put too much sugar in,”
“No you didn’t baby, it doesn’t have much sugar in it and you’re probably going to need that much,”
“No, it’s ok, I’ll just put it back.”
“Don’t do that, put it in my bowl, I never have enough sugar!”


“I need more sugar,”
“I told you so!”
“Why do you always do that?”
“Do what?”
“You always tell me what I have to do, what is right and wrong?”
“Calm down hun, it’s only sugar.”
“But it’s not, it’s everything. Nothing I do is right, I can never do anything that is right by you,”
“I never said that,”
“Even the juice. You gave out to me because I left it out and didn’t put it back in the fridge. I know you don’t have a lot of money and that it’s a waste, but there wasn’t even much in it. Not even half a cup The way you deal with things is bad and you don’t listen.”
“It’s not about the money or the waste. I just don’t like cold juice. I don’t get why people just can’t put things back when they are finished with them.”
“Well that’s fair enough, and I didn’t know that.”
“I don’t care about the juice.”


“If we ever do live together though you have to give up this control issue you have. You can’t control everything. You don’t listen to yourself.”
Silence
“Do you see what I am trying to say to you? All I want to do is help you do things, but you make it so difficult and so trying that it makes it impossible to do.”
Silence
“I am trying really hard to talk to you about these things, but they just seem to continually repeat themselves. I am trying so hard not to get angry and to give out, I know that I can, but you just make me so angry sometimes. I said I was going to talk to you about all the things that bother me rather than just let them build up. Do you see what I am saying?”
“You’re not listening to me though. You don’t care.”
“DON’T SAY THAT!”
“You just aren’t listening and you don’t care,”
“STOP IT, GOD JUST STOP IT. WHY ARE YOU SAYING THAT?”
Silence
“JUST BRING ME TO THE AIRPORT. I WANT TO GO HOME.”


“Do you still want to go on a break?”
“No, I said we weren’t going to talk about that.”
“But after what happened…”
“Look, I don’t want to talk about that. It’s fine now, I am sorry for upsetting you.”
“You didn’t upset me, you just confuse me sometimes.”
“I know, but didn’t you see how I was trying not to lose my temper?”
“Yes, but I didn’t help you much.”
“It’s not that, but I do need you to be strong and to help me. When I get like that I have told you I need you to just say that ‘You’re doing that thing again’ and it will make me realise what I am doing.”
“I know, but I can’t be your punchbag.”
“I know.”


“I don’t want you to go.”
“I don’t want to go either.”
“I’ll see you next week though. I can’t wait.”
“Me either. I am sorry again.”
“Me too baby. I am sorry too.”
“Will you walk up to departures with me?”
“Of course I will.”


“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“I don’t ever want to lose you.”

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mtamer

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