Emotional bulimia

Have you ever realised
that everything you miss
is not all that special
or good to begin with?

Vomiting away my days,
it feels like bulimia.
You say you need your own way,
like drug-fuelled paranoia.

I take advantage of myself;
I’m wasting time and what is mine.
You know how to pick the best times
to hand deliver the worst lines.

And now that you’re begging,
words and lies you don’t mean,
I know this isn’t real;
you’re faking that you’re keen.

So I guess it’s fine I puke
all good sentiment away.
I guess it’s appropriate
you’ve entrapped your mind away.

I can do all that I’ve dreamed of;
my sharpened heel is on your throat.
It was my choice to play your game
And now I hope you fucking choke.

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Venting is a good kind of purge in my opinion!

I’ll defer to Anna Quindlen, of The New York Times: “People who are knowledgeable about poetry sometimes discuss it in that knowing, rather hateful way in which oenophiles talk about wine: robust, delicate, muscular. This has nothing to do with how most of us experience it, the heart coming around the corner and unexpectedly running into the mind. Of all the words that have stuck to the ribs of my soul, poetry has been the most filling.”

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  • S .
    S .over 5 years ago

    wow you gotta hear this listen to that you will feel better
    this is awesome ! love it ! ! !

  • Oh wow Shoaib, I love The Used too. Meant to be seeing them at The Hi-Fi Bar in Melbourne on Nov 20 as a matter of fact, if I can get tickets Monday. Hadn’t noticed how many similarities this poem has to that song either – thanks for pointing it out :) They are awesome, I so agree!

    – msdebbie

  • Teacup
    Teacupover 5 years ago

    Love the opening lines… can so relate to that. Well vented there msdebbie. x

  • Thanks teacup, I have an affinity for venting xoxo Deb xoxo

    – msdebbie

  • Jane Keats
    Jane Keatsover 5 years ago

  • Thanks so much Jane :) I feel really honoured by the privilege.

    – msdebbie

  • Hathor
    Hathorover 5 years ago

    ha! you tell ’em, chica, rock his stupid-ass world with the heel of your sharpest boot – yee-aya!!! woohoo! cheers girl, love it! Kxo

  • Thanks KR :) I do like the thought of it being boots – I was thinking of a hot red pair when I wrote it, to match my rage LOL xoxo

    – msdebbie

  • Elizium
    Eliziumover 5 years ago

    Wonderful writing Deb…very visceral…I love the idea of puking up ones’ emotions…and then hoping that the other chokes…as well as The Used song it also kinda reminds me of this Tool song…

    Congratulations

    Elizium x

  • Thanks so much Elizium! I love that suck me dry line in the Tool song – great imagery. Parasites like ticks and leeches are always a great metaphor for this type of unhealthy relationship or dynamic. I feel really privileged by this feature xoxo

    – msdebbie

  • AFogArty
    AFogArtyover 5 years ago

    Yep, you was angry, nice vent. xx

  • Thanks Adrian – from one venter to another – that is appreciated LOL xoxo

    – msdebbie

  • Peter Maeck
    Peter Maeckover 5 years ago

    YES!!!

  • Can I presume from such an emphatic yes that you might be a venter too?! LOL xoox

    – msdebbie

  • Peter Maeck
    Peter Maeckover 5 years ago

    Yes, I vent, too, in my ways, and have hoped many antagonists would fucking choke (well, figurativelly at least), but I can only envy your putting your sharpened heel to your enemies’ throats. Go for it.

  • Thanks Peter, I’m currently writing a bit of vent piece, if you’re up later it could be something you’ll like my friend xoxo

    – msdebbie

  • Peter Maeck
    Peter Maeckover 5 years ago

    I’m awake, alert, and ready for it. Can’t wait to see it.

  • Thank you for such a kind reply! Screaming to infinity xoxo

    – msdebbie

  • Sarah ORourke
    Sarah ORourkeover 5 years ago

    Wow very powerful! Everyone seems to hear music to this… my mind went straight to Doughnut Song… It’s very “Pele-esque”…

  • And if I’m wasting all your time
    This time
    Maybe you never learned to take
    And if I’m hanging on to your shade
    I guess I’m way beyond the pale

    That is a great song! I am going to check out your work and start linking to Tori lyrics methinks xoxo

    – msdebbie

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