‘Over and out,’ he says,
‘You’ll have to learn to deal.’
This horrible flippant oppression beats deeper down into my soul.
You can look this way, you can look that way.
It is only a matter of time you start falling,
because falling has always been your description of failure.
Just give up! What am I saying, you already have.
‘Just go away,’ you say. ‘Just go away.’
I look to you now,
and I wish to speak my words more than clearly.
Please hold my hand,
just hold my hand.
I always knew you were the reason for my existence.
Please forgive my weltering self.
Hold my hand, just hold my hand. Lead me like a child.
I need to know where to go.
I’m a lousy fool for happiness,
and I’ll take a stab at it whenever the chance comes around.
Why not loose it all, when so much has already been lost?
It is a positive thought i promise.
Turn and stop.
Which way will work?
Which of these steps will finally put our feet on the right track?
What needs to be done so we can make it there?
I’m loosing speed, your loosing speed.
I wanted to take you with me.
But my hands fell to my sides when you reached for me,
now the rest is a mystery.
I want to know it all. I wanted to have the understanding of you, God.
Thankfully i can’t.
I’m flipping back and forth.
The time is running out.
My body is pulsing, and every muscle cringes,
I’ve been running for so long.
Pain surges from my feet to my hands to my head
with every breathe that is taken,
I want to scream and get away from here.
I’m so tired.
So, so tired.
She said she was so tired of trying to be happy.
So tired of trying.
what happened there?
Why keep repeating the past.
These footsteps are overlapping each other. Their taking me nowhere.
Which is better,
The temporary joy that stares me straight in the face,
or the never-ending forgiving friend?
‘Over and out,’ he said.
Boldly, you walked on out of this door,
I wont be seeing you any longer.
And in this life, here and maybe now,
i’ll someday learn how to deal.
But for now,
Step further and beyond.
One foot at a time.
Only in time will you find out,
if you chose right or not.