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10 4 08; good riddance to bad rubbish

10-6-10 @10:31 am

you tried your damnedest
to keep me down
everything you knew would work
is what you sent around
you kept me punch drunk for years
with a flurry of lefts and rights
you stole a lot of my days
and even more of my nights
the final straw was the woman
you sent disguised as love
cause you knew that i’d damn near won
but all i needed was a shove
to put me back where you wanted me
in the depths of addiction’s despair
so you delivered what i thought i wanted
with the demon hidden behind a longing stare
i can’t believe i fell for it
and jumped head first and headlong
back into that dark cold place
that i knew was altogether wrong
but somehow you missed the signs
until the final hour
that were sent to save my soul
by a higher power
my real true love was guided to me
as was the greatest of friends
both designed to pull me out
so i could live again
without the pain and risk that comes
with a life addicted to crack
but with the happiness and joy
of knowing i made it back
from the very edge of death
and out of that horrible hole
that kept me for so very long
denying freedom to my soul

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10 4 08; good riddance to bad rubbish by 


oct. 4th 2008 was prolly the most important day of my life; @2:30 am that morning was the last time i did a hit of crack; i was with the woman mentioned in the poem, and almost blew off the days planned events. luckily the powers that be would have none of that, and 12 hours later i flew, as planned, out of laguardia airport bound for lake worth fla. and the life that had been mine all along. it took me just shy of a year to regain enough of myself to finally brave coming from there to louisiana to be with my one true love.

i’m just another maniac trying to get along as best i can in a cold and crazy world.

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  • markFairaday
    markFairadayalmost 4 years ago

    wow man this is heavy. really good stuff . wow.

  • Rhenastarr
    Rhenastarralmost 4 years ago

    A powerful statement of survival. I am so very happy that the powers that be, allowed you your chance at happiness. Addiction in any form is a sentence to hell on earth. BRAVO my friend.

  • Akkra
    Akkraalmost 4 years ago

    Nice one MM and the best move you ever could have made. When you look back in retrospect, you must thank the powers that be a million times a day!

  • Betty Smith_Voce
    Betty Smith_Vocealmost 4 years ago

    This is the stuff that exceptional people like you are made from… inner strength, perseverance and a sense of being to stay with your self through the darkest of times! I so admire you and celebrate your freedom and love.
    It is good to look back and to see where we took the turn back onto the road…
    Much love to you MHM

  • kimangeline
    kimangelinealmost 4 years ago

    so glad you made it mrman :) :)

  • galaticos
    galaticosalmost 4 years ago

    Bravo my friend

  • CLiPiCs
    CLiPiCsalmost 4 years ago

    man I bet that felt good to write :-0)

    WTG MM

    Love ‘N’ Laughter Kriss

  • thanx kriss; it sure did feel good! just 2 or 3 more demons to let out and i’ll finally be free!!!

    – mohawk man

  • MaralynSpeaking
    MaralynSpeakingalmost 4 years ago

    KEEP CELEBRATING ONE DAY AT A TIME. You remind me how important writing is … a great tool to keep things right.

  • Rocky Loder
    Rocky Loderalmost 4 years ago

    i tip my hat to you…all the best …stay clean…

  • bearwings
    bearwingsalmost 4 years ago

    you live again, thats cool because you aint finished yet, more life to you, nice writing, the message is loud and clear and I hope it inspires others to regain themselves

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