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my dad always had a short fuse
he always hated to lose
but that night
the last fight
he lost mom and i
in a blink of the eye.

dad was a drinker
i was the thinker
i thought about
when we’d get out
in the open
i was hoping…

that i didn’t have to see
the bruises and the bloody
mess on the kitchen floor
his scream for more
asking me to fight
to teach me right.

his scream
haunted dream
i cannot sleep
fist at my feet
begging and pleading
my heart faintly beating.

he would beg for forgiveness
i remember the bloody mess
on the kitchen floor
watching more
blood and tears
his haunting fears…

my soul and my heart
which he had ripped apart
the first time he hit
called me a piece of shit
called me worthless
and the bloody mess.

his eye
helps deny
the chance
my hand
shakes
while my heart
breaks.

it first happened on june sixth
help me, i plead the fifth
to just get me out with her
but then, i am hit, blur
my thought
i fought…

him with my fists
shaking i missed
but then i thought of my mother
and then i jab and then another
he goes down
i run around…

the kitchen counter for safety
from the bloody
mess on the floor
he asks for more
and i said no
and black it go.

i woke up in my room
it was a quarter after noon
mother in the kitchen
him just bitching
i hear her scream
please be a dream…

it’s not
the spot
is red
i’m dead
if i move one step
i hold in my breath…

i grab the knive and run
“Come and get your fun…”
i hide in the closet
i turn on the faucet
in the bathroom to fool
him, then i stab, the pool…

of blood grows and stains
the carpet and my brains
i killed the monster under my bed
for once, then, he’s finally dead
and my mother is safe in my arms
no more pain, no more alarms.

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  • stephmaullar
    stephmaullarabout 4 years ago

    this is fucking amazing.

  • thank you very much Steph.

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  • Pagly4u
    Pagly4uabout 4 years ago

    Such a strong write……and brutal……..but I know you can handle this………….work through it……..you can………Hugs…

  • Thank you very much.

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  • JaniceMachado
    JaniceMachadoabout 4 years ago


    For entering your image in SHOW US YOUR BLOOPERS

  • You’re welcome.

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  • wigs
    wigsabout 4 years ago

    crikey Stephen that is one hell of a write….. blew me away completely

  • Twas the goal, thank you.

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  • jacqleen
    jacqleenabout 4 years ago

    OMG…I felt soooooooo much here..and it broke my heart…so much pain, fear..sadness and moreeee fear….wow…the pace of this made my heart race…your words just made me teared up…but I’m glad that your mom is safe and you found strenght to stand your ground and claim back your life…k, i need to go and breathe again…
    great great and powerful writing. xx

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  • Aryanna Aetha
    Aryanna Aethaabout 4 years ago

    i have never known you not to write emotional truth. and you do not stop here.
    tremendous write.

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  • Corri Gryting Gutzman
    Corri Gryting ...about 4 years ago

    Wow.
    Thank you for sharing this.
    There is power in your writing and power in you.
    I hope you continue to claim back the beautiful life that had been out of your reach.
    The beautiful life where you’re not put down or yelled at or abused.
    Here’s to your new life!

  • Thank you.

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  • Shanna J. S. Dunlap
    Shanna J. S. D...about 4 years ago

    Holy crap… wow. This is incredibly intense and what an amazing write. I could picture it in my mind as I read each line and I believe I felt my own heart beat speed up. Great job with the emotion and expression in this. : )

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  • CanyonWind
    CanyonWindabout 4 years ago

  • An honor POP’s.

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  • supstephsun
    supstephsunabout 4 years ago

    wow… frightening combination of fear and courage. wonderful storytelling as always.

  • thank you.

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