Because I sinned for many years cutting myself, I sense my desperate need to be made holy by God. I do not transform myself, but in submission to His will, I lay more of myself on the altar. Our Lord Jesus, Blessed Jesus did it all, His Atoning Work is Complete. There is nothing we can add to it, as it is The Perfection of The Lamb. Not by works but by The Grace of God. But, The Holy Spirit moves me towards more of God’s holiness. I lay down corrupt television shows that do not honor Christ, that offend The Holy Spirit. I do not lay them aside because my doing so adds anything to The Righteousness of Jesus Christ. I lay things aside, worthless things because I want more of Christ, more intimacy with my Father. I know I have written that we should leave the culture, the nature of this culture, because we do not desire sin, nor should we want it. The Love of Jesus Christ gave me everything. I just feel this sense to honor Him, by letting God prune me, and have His way with me. Not because I do not want the rest of Jesus Christ, but I rest in Him, when I throw off all the things that keep me from fully knowing Him. I write about my cutting, not because I am that person, but to give God the glory for getting rid of that sinful person. I want so much more for all of the people who do not take the Healing Jesus died to give us. I cut for so many years, even when I was saved. Because I didn’t take the healing my Lord had for me. He wanted to heal me, but I felt unworthy for so many years. I wanted to hurt because of all of the scars I had suffered from my parent’s marriage and divorce, and men I had loved. But Blessed Jesus, my Blessed Father had so much more for me. He saw me as beautiful, because of my Savior. For years the devil tormented me, and said I was unworthy. But Jesus, my Blessed Jesus was patient and kind, and His Lovingkindess makes me want to be kinder to everyone. It is experiencing all of the Grace He has given to me. He fulfilled all Righteousness, He paid the sin debt, and put a Robe of Righteousness on me. He has inscribed His Holy Name on my heart, The Holy Spirit lives and moves inside of me, compelling me, come deeper with me. I want to testify, to be a witness that will sing of God’s glory. No, God is glorious without my tiny testimony. My life is tiny, but His Love is Big. When I speak of holiness, I don’t mean for people to do so by their own self will, but out of love, we submit as servants, as children, as disciples. Our Lord laid down His life out of obedience. In Hebrews God said, “He learned obedience by the things which He suffered.” (Hebrews 5:8) His Shed Blood is enough to transform totally a life. He healed me and I didn’t will it, nor was I forced to stop. The Love of Jesus compelled me to stop the mini executions I committed against my own body. His body was broken for me, His blood shed for me, so it wasn’t necessary, all of the suffering on my part. The Savior set me free from the torments of the liar. I lift up and laud my God for all that He has given to me, for loving me when I was cutting. He is my Righteouness, my Glory, my Light, my Hope, and my Love. God desires to make all believers more like Jesus Christ. Our Father has called and is raising holy children, His Bride is unblemished because of Christ, but everyday our Lord beautifies His Bride by breaking the addicitions, and by destroying totally the sin inside of each one of us. As a testimony to the world of unbelievers. We do not walk nor live like the world.
But it took time for me to see that Jesus Christ was truly my Rest from this life. When I finally let Him be my Rest, then The Healing of the stripes came. I am Redeemed by The Precious Blood of Jesus Christ. Nothing I do will ever add to His Work, but finally laying down the “old body that was crucified with Him” was the Rest. When I stopped hurting myself, and stopped beating myself up, I wrapped tightly this Robe, even though it was always around me. I grasped tightly the Healing of Jesus, when I experineced His Lovingkindness, even though it was always there. But the sinning kept me from experiencing His love more fully. Sin keeps us from believing The Truth fully. Fornicating hurt my relationship with Jesus, my Lord. He never for a moment stopped loving me, I stopped seeing my Savior as my everything. Sin keeps us from fully seeing and experiencing our Jesus as Everything there is for us. So I write lay sin aside to see The Glory of Jesus Christ, and to fully experience all of the Rest He has for you. Lay aside the tortures of sin, He was tortured to end the torture in our lives. BLESSED BE THE NAME, AND THE PERSON OF JESUS CHRIST BOTH MY LORD AND MY SAVIOR!
“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest.”
“Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me,
for I Am gentle and lowly in heart, and you
will find rest for your souls.
“For My yoke is easy and My burden is
“So when Jesus had received the sour wine,
He said, “IT IS FINISHED!” And bowed His head,
He gave up The Spirit.
For by Grace you have been saved through
faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift
not of works, lest anyone should boast.
“For I have been crucified with Christ; it is no
longer I who live, but Christ lives in me;
and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by
faith in The Son of God, who loved me and gave
Himself for me.
I do not lay aside The Grace of God; for
if righteousness comes through law, then
Christ died in vain."
I beseech you therefore brethren, by the
mercies of God, that you present your bodies
a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God,
which is your reasonable service.
And do not be conformed to this world, but
be transformed by the renewing of your mind,
that you may prove what is that good and acceptable,
and perfect will of God."
What shall we say then? Shall we continue
in sin that grace may abound?
Certainly not! How shall we who died to sin
live any longer in it?
Or do you not now that as many of us as
were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized
into His death?
Therefore we were buried with Him through
baptism into death, that just as Christ was
raised from the dead by the glory of The Father,
even so we also should walk in newness of
For if we have been united together in the
likeness of His death, certainly we also shall
be in the likeness of His resurrection,
knowing this, that our old man was crucified
with Him, that the body of sin might be done
away with, that we should no longer be
slaves of sin.
This is in response to a devotional by Vivian Gordon. We know and love her as vigor. There Is No Spot In You.