(January 20, 2013-September 7, 2013)
You won’t be there to answer my phone call in the morning. I had no way of knowing that I had already wished you your final birthday. You have no more birthdays. But, I’d like to think that you do. There will be no cake, no birthday song, no laughter, only memories. There were birthday cakes, and kisses, the lopsided cakes I used to make and the rock cookies you used to say I baked. Your smile is not there, you have no words for me, your body is resting under the earth, I will visit today even though you are not really there, I will visit, and wish you a Happy Birthday anyway. Daddy, you had many good birthdays, some spent with me, many spent apart, as I grew older, you moved away, but you were always a phone call away. Please forgive my tears this is the first birthday you will not be there. We will remember that you were given to us on this day, we will remember that you were here once upon a time, for what feels so brief now, this was your day. And yet, God said, that the day of one’s death is so much more to celebrate. You have passed into an eternal celebration, and the day of your birth has slipped away, never to be celebrated in the way it once was.
This day was not really your birth, but the beginning of your journey. You set out nearly 70 years ago, to become a husband and father, to find love more than once, to have children and grandchildren,………..
Every day you painted, you made a canvas out of your life experiences you have left yourself in all of your children, and grandchildren….the love you gave in your youth and in your maturity…..You have left an indelible impression on the world around, you have forever changed us.
I will not imagine you celebrating your birthday, but celebrating your Eternity with Jesus.
Love your firstborn daughter