Bind my wounds O' Lord

"But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His Stripes we are healed." (Isaiah 53:5)

Troubled Waters Run Deep

You have carved deep inside me, / as a river running through the ages. / Your imprint, as fingerprints will never leave / me. / Beside Jesu…

Artist Passion

(For my father, Artist Passion) / You came into yourself / late / a stranger / an expatriate / that searched for / home / for years / the a…

With a tired knife

With a tired knife / You slashed my father’s / legacy / What my father was proud / Of, / What he created to last / paintings / beq…

The Belligerence of Death

The belligerence of death / has a single rule / To visit / Quietly / but you are not sleeping. / Why must I visit your grave? / You won’t …

It makes little difference now

It makes little difference now / The shallow roads / we took / the pygmy dreams / once sculpted / as real / the pride / the gluttony / ou…

Don’t forget me daddy

(For my beloved father, Reynaldo) / Don’t forget me daddy / That eternal moment / you caught me / Peering into your soul / With all of its …

THE SOMBER REALITY OF Waking Emma

I / The weeks since my father’s death I have cried myself to sleep, spent the rest of the nights with eyes that cannot close, writing…

I Look Down From Heaven

I look down from heaven / I will never forget you / I am finally at peace / My robe glistening white / Sitting at Jesus’ feet / I look down…

I am falling down the rabbit hole

I am falling down the rabbit hole / Of savage grief and barbarism / I am left with the ice cold truth / Of your death / I am falling down t…

Burying my father

I felt the scar on my father’s head from the autopsy. Everyone had said, “You should never touch the frozen skin of a loved one.” But this …

I only beg for a love that will never return

I cannot catch up / To the days ahead / I cannot find my next / Breath, / I will give you what is left / Of my years, / So you will be he…

The Edges of Bread

I can’t share anything with you / Not even the time on a watch / No more words spoken / It’s a given / But it isn’t / Not to loved ones. /…

Death smiled

We all view death as a joke / Until it happens to us / Death is a myth / That happens to somebody / Else / If death comes suddenly / How ca…

Ashes

September 7th is a curse / Life spit into my face / And laughed in a disturbing / way / A stoning of emotion / Dripping tears as blood / I…

The Scream

There is a scream in my throat / That refuses to leave. / I will swallow it / To keep you here a little longer / I will hold onto your pain…

Testifying To The Glory of God

Formerly I was a sinner who knew not The Righteousness of my Lord Jesus Christ. Formerly I was a cutter who profaned the flesh of my Lord…

The Low Hum of the Humidifier

The low hum of the humidifier, / chokes silently / breathing plumes of smoke / into the air, / a false halo, / encircles my daughter’s …

Note To my Christ

When my life with Jesus suffers. Prayers become sighs of desperation and grief within. Silence and doubt. Jesus, where is Your Presence?…

I didn’t know: The Truth About Cutting

Cutting is a different kind of sin, different from drinking and abusing alcohol, and different from lying or fornicating. This sin invites…

My Grace Is Sufficient For you

In His Word God gave me so many passages to affirm to me that once I was His, I was His. There would be bruisings to crush the sin from me…

Holy Desperation

Desperation / set my path for God. / blindly, groping, / to set your feet where / The Holy Spirit takes / there is no blueprint / for the …

Christina Taylor Green

your life was sacrificed / on the pages of political / war, / your soul illuminated / to greet the Lord / with the smile you freely / gave …

A Prayer of Peace for the Sherman Brothers

“Chim Chim Cheree” / such a light and breezy kite / into the chimney tops of London

i found mold on the ceiling of my heart

everybody knew i battled demons / that i tilt at invisible windmills / no one but i have sensed / my Sword has fallen into such / disrepair,

Weep not! It’s Christmas!

shoppers pass me / on the streets, / “weep not!” / it’s Christmas! / while savages / and monsters / want their sex / to…

Hypocrisy

Take the beam out of my eye / before I take it out of yours / hypocrisy streams through / my veins too / I beat my breast with the publica…

A Corpse

Let / God / empty / your / souls / of it’s / dead / bones

I am not

I am not the saint tonight / when pity stains my cheeks / begging for the altar of God / to change me / at times my throat / aches swollen…

Ache

i ache / quietly / a dullness / a seeping poison / without You Lord

The Rib That Never Was

i am the rib / never formed / from any man / i was expectation / heartache / afterthought / lust / and embittered dust

in Heaven i’ll forget that i bled

in Heaven i’ll forget that i bled / i remember my father’s face when he was 30 / his black mustache, almost a child’s fac…

Mari-amu

lifting your metal bones / as Praise to God / you twirled and danced / in riveted joy / smiling forgiveness / as you received your healing …

The Moon Says He Too Grieves

As I taste the night air / breathing in God’s Goodness / relaxes me / tells me all is well

My Scars Still Weep

My scars still weep only for You / to come down from Your Throne / and take the heap of ashes / pour them over You / I knew You’d com…

Come Lay your body over His grave

Come lay your body over His grave / Let His grave be your grave / His death be your death / Come give the Lord your tears / give Him the si…

Ghost inside me

to the part of me that died / there are days I want to crawl / into that hole with you / when I lay in bed looking up / wondering, “…

Meant as a Message in a Bottle

wondering if a call will crescendo / If I will hear a rock skipping across / the ocean / meant as a message in a bottle

He left me by the side of the road

“I’m sorry Lord.” / I should have come to you / when loneliness rubbed it’s thorns / over my heart / sorry about th…

God i want to be broken

Let my sins bleed out of me / before Holy God / bow my head before my King / humility a beautiful jewel / my brokenness / the treasure i gr…

i Surrender my Will

i surrender my will / the men that delighted in taking / the jewels / from my crown / You will replace / You will forgive / the razors tha…

enemy you’ve cut me for the last time

enemy you’ve cut me for the last time / I reverence the sacredness of life / and the Blood the Lord poured into me / I take my place …

i Stopped Singing Praises Today

i stopped singing praises to God / i stood in the lines of desperation / waiting for Oprah’s empy words

Vanity

I remember that one day is as a thousand with Christ / If I hold onto His hand, accept His will / for me / Vanity / is washed away / and pu…

Sinner

I with Isaiah am also of unclean lips / I with Paul, blinded and thrown off my pedestal / I with Peter, have denied you with promises not k…

After I’ve shredded Christ’s Precious…

After I’ve shredded Christ’s precious flesh / the cuts have scarred Jesus again / and I look upon the damaged tissue / an expr…

The Girl

the girl hasn’t discovered her wings yet / not realizing the strength of her soul / nor realizing that was God’s gift to her fo…

Prayer Will Set Your Soul Free

I prayed so hard yesterday / I erased the scars for a moment / For moments I was with My Lord / ran after My Jesus / called out His Holy N…

The Old Man With The Cat Hairs

God touches the rough places, and kisses my lined face, maybe he thinks more of the wounded memories I carved into scars, and I can finally…

My Ovaries Hurt

and the scars of survivors go on and on / as pieces of wreckage / as pieces of meat in a jungle / they are forever floating / forever breat…

Morning Slices Through Me

in the shadows I am more familiar to myself / in the hours that cannot explain themselves / in hours that do not really exist / in those ho…

If I Misspoke

If I misspoke it wasn’t my intention, but we were like two sisters gossiping, and I forgot that you are really an old lonely man

Blood Rushing to My Head

my soul is a world / a discreet solipsism / intangible piece of forbidden fruit / and the worm in the center that eat / away at us all

The Ecstatic Air

When God couldn’t keep us alive anymore / when dying seemed better / I bit the ecstatic air like bits of glass to my tongue / like ch…

The Feet of the Lord

with your feet you hung, a spike forced through your flesh / i want to spend a lifetime there to find the healing i find nowhere else

A Friendship Generous Enough

I’d go looking for my eyes, but who will pick up Emma from school? with a bruise smeared across her cheek, she socked herself yesterd…

I Don’t Like To Remember My Childhood

I don’t like to remember my childhood / daddy’s torn knuckles wanted to “define me” / and mommy’s bleeding gu…

Digestion

I have grown too selfish to want to breastfeed a man, and I breastfeed myself, and I breastfeed my situation, and I breastfeed my words and…

Bleeding Gums

Life goes on tick tock tick tock not so simply as a clock, sometimes destructive, sometimes irreversible like balding and bleeding gums rav…

Contemplations on the Lord and Love

and after years of knowing you I had a one night stand with you, and that was the last bullet I had inside me to put into you

Spiritual Manna

Jesus was condemned by His own law, His own instrument of execution, the Creator of Rome empowered Rome to destroy Him

My Prayers are Quiet Shouts to God

My prayers are quiet shouts to God praying with the stamina of Jesus in Gesthemane with blows of my own, all the inward places cannot conta…

God Buried His Eye Inside Me

God buried His eye inside me and my hand is no better than Jeroboam’s withered dusty one writing what I was not intended to

Waking Up Emma

For breakfast she takes lithium with apple jacks, and I am always hoping that the shape of her mind will change into smoother places