“On-oh-mot-oh-pee-yah” keeps going through my head. Not quite sure why. I can’t even remember what it means. This is the way my mind functions. It pulls from every cobwebbed corner of its existance and fires off random thoughts, ideas, bits of conversation heard on tv, in a bank or on the radio. My thoughts bounce off fog-blanketed mattresses that squeak with delight and moan with recollection of past tribulations.
All too often I think of one of my favorite dialogues from the movie Empire Records where one of the characters says to another “What were you thinking?!” And the other character innocently replies “Who knows where thoughts come from – they just appear.”
As maddening as it is at times to keep up with the thoughts in my mind I realize that it is who I am. Even though that feels like standing on a galactical battleground with light orbs bouncing around me and missiles of light whizzing past my body.
This is one thing that amazes me about the human consciousness. You may look at someone who appears to be sitting idle, peering into thin air completely unphased. But inside is like mission control – alive and chaotic, full of life, ideas, thoughts, emotions. See? More random crap filling up the space within.
I have no idea where this little tid bit came from. When I proofed it afterwards I laughed to myself and thought it sounded like something you’d say at the psychiatrist’s office. I imagined sitting there going on and on and finally looking up to see their expression, looking at you like “What the hell WAS that?” Immediately followed by “Times up for today!”