Featured with the group Healing Through Art Dec 2009
Featured with the group The Great Outdoors (Uninhabited Lands of the World) group Dec 2009
(Continued from Placid Snows) It’s not unfamiliar after all, now that I’m in it; now that I’m no longer keeping it at arms length. Why would I do that? Why would I fear such an embrace as this? It’s like I answer my own questions in a burst like machinegun fire: I blamed you; said you abandoned me; refused to forgive you; refused to acknowledge that it was me who walked away from you; I’m at fault and now I forgive me; now I know that you never abandon; now I’m willing to learn how to release the justifications I’ve held for why I’ve needed to suffer your absence, and on it goes as I begin to feel a part of this presence, as I come to know that this is who I am; I just know this somehow, and I feel everything else that’s a part of this as well. It is my awareness that is increasing, expanding out into this and recognizing a continuum, an interconnection with all that I meet. I feel the snow falling in me. I feel the silence rushing out to meet me. I feel so much more alive…at peace and serene. I sense that life will challenge me to remember even more, and I’ll not be swayed into doubt so easily. I feel the world around me smiling like a friend who has always wanted to make me stronger in this way. It’s like I’m taking my life by the hand and stepping into the next moment, no longer as anxious in anticipation of how I’ll be humiliated….defeated, but maybe just a little bit enthused for what there is in store for me instead. The doubts that made me weak in my resolve to remain here are falling away; I’m casting them aside; I don’t desire any longer what they do to me. I’m Dorothy tapping my heels together and taking flight back to Kansas :-) Oz had its attractions, but now I’m over it. I’m finding new courage, heart and understanding and they’re taking me home.
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Nikon F5 on Fuji Velvia 50 slide film, f2.8, 125mm, Wimberley head, Gitzo tripod