I wish you could see
what youre doing to me
my already twisted, warped ideas are now being reshaped, reknotted and recongifured. setting yourself up for failure
by trying to bring out the best in me
will only disappoint you. I cant be untangled. I’m too stained and scarred, cracked and broken to be worth anything. I
will only push
myself to be better than what I was before, not the best I can be. there is nothing I want that will guide
me to the edge
of what I deserve but maybe someday you will understand and see that I cant give you anything close to what you dream
of, what you wish for.
I am nothing.