You were Special

Michael Alesich
Author: Michael Alesich
Word Count: 223
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You were Special

A poem I wrote a few months back, continuing to vent my own frustrations at the emotions I hide.

You were Special belongs to the following groups:

All Things Poetic, Artistic, Philosophical

You were so special
Or maybe you still are
I can’t remember the difference
My mind hides when I think

It was not your looks,
Your touch or your voice.
The connection I felt seemed
so different to that

I could scream from the rooftops
How much that I loved you
But that word is corrupted
And correctly insufficient.

I didn’t just want a love,
I wanted a partner, a mate and a friend.
I wanted what I couldn’t have
An infant selfish within his world

In all I gained a friend,
One out of three is meant to be reasonable
Apathy should set in,
Before the true feelings override.

Did I love you? I know not.
I didn’t even get tht chance to think it.
Did I want you, Maybe yes.
But you were always loved by many

I could spend years analysing
All our conversations, looks and contacts.
Looking at all with futility
For ghosts, myths and legends.

I resolve myself occasionally
To break away from my feelings.
Like an addict testing
Cold turkey for a time.

Don’t pity me, don’t laugh at me
I am still, just a human.
As if that was an excuse
For life, for love and all misdeeds in between

A closed mind is hardest to unlock
You may find nothing new
Don’t die unloved,
Live.

  • illicit

    illicit

    this is so moving and so close to my own heart..Bravo Michael.

  • Paul Louis Villani

    Paul Louis Vil...

    Now that is a way to end a piece!
    Don’t die unloved, Live.
    The most scariest of feelings is to allow oneself to be overthrown by an emotion (especially love) yet you have made a statement that eases the phobia.
    Even if it doesn’t work out….
    To have lived is to have loved!
    Well written Michman! :D

  • kseriphyn

    kseriphyn

    I really felt this; like waves of the sea pulling me closer and further from the shore. Well written.

  • Craig Shadbolt

    Craig Shadbolt

    I know I (and I suspect many) can identify with this. Very well written Michman!

  • Bridgett Ferguson

    Bridgett Ferguson

    This is soooooo beautiful Michman.
    I am at a loss for words by this definitely evoked a LOT of emotion within me.
    Superb words…...:)

  • MissKristy

    MissKristy

    My heart aches so after reading this..truly…such touching words…particularly love ‘My mind hides when I think’...oh, I know that feeling well.

    I am a big fan of your words…your talent is so unique. Thankyou for sharing.

  • Michael Alesich

    Michael Alesich

    I normally try to post after every 2 or so comments, but I’ve been a bit quiet on this one.

    Thankyou all for your compliments, Its a personal piece and I’m glad people can identify with it.

  • Suzanne German

    Suzanne German

    this is spendid! -simply that – splendid!

  • Trish Cooper

    Trish Cooper

    Such heartfelt emotion!!! So raw, and honest!!!

  • David Haviland

    David Haviland

    Only thing worse then dying of a broken heart is to die with never taking it out of the wrapping. You have described up to earlier this year, then I took it out of the wrapping and started to live.

  • loramae

    loramae

    “A closed mind is hardest to unlock”...so intimate…yet it reaches out to so many hearts…thank you for sharing…

  • Luckyvegetable

    Luckyvegetable

    god, this is beautiful.
    dammit you damn well did it a-bloody-gain! snif. snifsnif.
    grrrr ;)

  • Luckyvegetable

    Luckyvegetable

    god, this is beautiful.
    dammit you damn well did it a-bloody-gain! snif. snifsnif.
    grrrr ;)

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