On the 19th of December 2011 in the RSPCA veterinary clinic in Llandudno Junction at 11am Indy was put to sleep. We had arrived at the opening hour of 10am to a full waiting room. The ladies who were waiting said what a lovely dog he was and I told them the reason behind his visit. One of the ladies shouted “Well, you’re going in first, I volunteer here and we all agree”, she shouted over to the counter that we were first and all the other ladies agreed. By the time I had given our details I turned around and one of the ladies was being comforted as our situation brought back sad memories of a lost one. It wasn’t long before the vet saw Indy, Indy was given a slow acting sedative and we were shown into a small room used for making coffee with a chair and left alone. Ignoring the chair I sat on the tiled floor with Indy and soaked in every precious last moment as Indy slowly fell asleep and slumbered in my arms. After about half an hour the Vet returned and left us ten more minutes until the sedative took full effect. During our final time alone I gently talked to him, told him much he was loved and how much he was going to be missed. The Vet lifted him up and we went to the treatment room where he placed Indy gently on the table. By this time Indy had re-opened his eyes but he made no sound or any movement except to fix his eyes on mine at the end of the table. I continued to talk calmly to him making sure the emotion of the moment did not reveal itself in my voice. My one wish was that Indy didn’t enter the next world afraid and as the Vet told me he was ready to administer the final dose I told Indy to let go and not to struggle for my sake. His eyes never left mine and were still open after he passed. I looked up at the clock and noticed it was 11am as I was left alone with his body for a few minutes. All the emotion flooded out in hot tears as I finally let go, it’s hard to believe it was a year ago that I said goodbye to my best friend. His passing was peaceful and I have no regrets that it was the right time given his condition but the hole he left can never be filled and there have been many times this last 12 months when the grief has been too hard to handle. I look forward to Christmas with my new companion Laddie but Indy will always be with me. I hope this takes some fear out of the euthanasia process, if you are lucky it can be a peaceful and loving end.