Glorified Suicide

Melissa Vowell
Author: Melissa Vowell
Word Count: 210
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Glorified Suicide

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please do not ask me if I am alright. I am fine.

Glorified Suicide belongs to the following groups:

All Things Poetic, Artistic, Philosophical

Suicidal longing once again plagues my meager existence
As dreams of me and whoever I am trickle down the nape of my neck…
It creates a feeling not unlike I’d imagine my blood would feel trickling
Like molten lava making its way down my insignificant body
Pooling on the ground having gone as far as gravitational forces care to allow
The blood pulsating through my veins is giving this illusion that I’m alive
But in my mind stirs the harsh reality that I’m dead to this world
Tears now… Crying for myself when even my own tears are too good for me
It hurts to be walked all over, trodden on and mangled
But I’m sorry if I dirtied your shoes with my infectious blood
Knives pressed to my heart everyday
The long cold blade reminds me of scars and I smile
We both know, I’m too much of a pussy to push it in
Nobody can love you until you love yourself
But self loathing is too much to surpass
How can you love yourself when everyone else loathes you too?
Now excuse me while I take my lady bic to my wrist
Then apologise to the basin for bleeding in it

- Melissa Vowell

  • artstruggle

    artstruggle

    I keep telling you…UP the artery…get it right!

  • Melissa Vowell

    Melissa Vowell

    Now now Edward. As i’ve heard it put “down the street not across the road”

    These are not joking matters ;)

  • roybarry

    roybarry

    I’m no expert but I’d say There’s some serious self esteem issues going on here…......

  • artstruggle

    artstruggle

    Mella, would I joke about you aspiring to that glorious bluish grey skin tone which is so ‘in’ right now?

  • Melissa Vowell

    Melissa Vowell

    well, I was sixteen, what can I say :) If you really got in and read all my other writings, you’d probably understand the lack of self esteem!

  • roybarry

    roybarry

    I’m going to read them all-today.

  • Melissa Vowell

    Melissa Vowell

    all of them? Holy carp. Hope you’re prepared lol

  • Suzanne German

    Suzanne German

    Tears now… Crying for myself when even my own tears are too good for me

    Melissa – chilled me to the core…as usual – heightened sense of raw guts and emotion that you have your vey own special style in delivering – and delivering exceptionally well !

    prosit!

    -sg

  • malzard

    malzard

    Bloody hell this is heavy work, but you do it well, i was also chilled but i read it to the end, this says lots about your writing,All the best.

  • James Price

    James Price

    Sadness and doubt brings such emotional work out of you. I’m glad you wrote this down instead of doing it, and I’m gad you’re so much happier today!

  • Jen Whyte

    Jen Whyte

    I was there with you … a mirror image … thank god it is now!!

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