Mother & Child", The Painting, The Story, The Inspiration
“An adaption from my previous paintings, mother in love stems from my experience of being in hospital with my first child. Because my waters broke early and I was expecting a child at 29 weeks(11 weeks early), I drew a drawing like this every week with a new number on it. Eg when I was 29 weeks I drew this picture on A4 paper with colours and drew the number 30 on it representing me seeing my baby growing big and strong inside me for the next week. I was reading a Wayne Dyer book at the time “real Magic”, and through visualising and believing I kept her in for another 6 weeks which was incredible at the time. The picture represents health, happiness and growth."
But there is much more to write about this piece…..
The symbology behind this painting is magnificent on a personal level.
It all began in the year 1999…..
To fully understand the story behind it, I have to say that when I was pregnant, the fear and tribulations that I experienced was huge.
The journey of pregnancy, created from nothing is nothing short of incredible, heart felt, emotive and of pure love and trust.
I must add also, that my childs father was absent during the experience, and I took on a decision to have my daughter on my own.
This brought up a whole lot of other fears and I went very deeply into the questions of family, the abandonment and absence of “The Father” as an archetypal energy as well as aspects of my own upbringing and loss and separation of own father during my life. (My father is alive).
And all the connotations from a societal point of view on the family unit.
I also embodied a new strength, that of the Protector .
The colours of white in the child, which also embody the mother in a foetal position, carrying another live heart and body within her, symbolise purity.
The red symbolises passion, love, pure strong, pumping life force.
The browns represent the earth, and hence the analogy of “Earth Mother”, for carrying a child is a natural, earthly instinct that has been passed down by thousands of generations of women.
For anyone with knowledge on Gestalt and energy work, the left hand side is to do with the female archetypal energy, the feminine, the mother, the female, and the right hand side is to do with the Male archetype, the Masculine, the father, the male.
In all my paintings the childs head leans towards the left, signifying the close relationship with the feminine.
In the state of the womb, inner, deep,dark,recessive, – the individuals female nature is activated and very necessary for the healthy emergence of the live child. (or as I will later discuss, the emergence or developement of a thought from an idea (seed) to its actualisation and tangible existence on the physical plane)
The red boxes on either side, one above on the left, and one below on the right, therefore again represent female support – left, and male support – right. This brings creation into balance, the microcosm and macrocosm.
The square, or box, also brings much needed structure or “masculine” to the feminine (cricles) in the piece.
The balance of masculine and feminine energy in creation is very important.
In some aspects we need one more than the other, for a time, but we will always be out of balance and “stuck” somewhere on the journey if we do not embody both.
Here is another analogy………
First is the seed
Then is the nurturing
Then is the emergence
Once a thought (seed) is created,
Don’t waste energy in thinking you have to do everything.
Let it go, give it up.
Pass it on to the universe to be watered,
fed, and nurtured.
Allow the team, others, the universe,
to support you.
Let them feel the joy of growth,
the upliftment of giving.
Then is the strength & growth
of the mature tree (embodied Idea)
Strong enough to survive on it’s own.
In this order. Imagine arrows in between.
Mother & Child has embodied many of these states within it.
For me, the painting represents wholeness and complete unity.
The child or entity, my psyche, my being, my inner self is centred and harmonious and totally at one with its environment.
I feel at peace, and trusting in life and the gentle unfolding of what the universe has planned for me.
It is as If i am floating, trusting in the tides of change, the people around me, circumstances, events and the bigger picture.
It was at this stage in my life there was nothing else to do but trust in the process, as I had exhausted my self through emotions of fear, depression, guilt,and all others, the only thing That was left to do was trust in a higher power, and rest, and let myself be nurtured.
Whilst having this image at the foot of my bed for weeks on end, I was in a very disciplined spiritual practice of putting all else out of my mind, and focusing only on the job and ultimate desire to feed my child, and have it come out alive, healthy, well and full of soul and life.
All through this experience, I read Real Magic, and put into reality of daily practice principals of creating miracles by Wayne Dwyer.
The journey was one of total self discipline
so, trust in the self knowing, the quiet, silent times when a thought is the seed for the future, able to grow strong enough on its own.
Nurture the strong, inner resilience that allows you to disregard what you need not, out of total acceptance of what is, and focus only on what you want to create.