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 Evolution by Marny Barnes

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Stock pic of BG provided by Don Wright.

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“The childhood memories(or flashbulb pictures as they are commonly referred to) of my parents are all larger than life, looming demons of fury. Twisted angry faces, lunging at me quicker than I can get away from them, hands grabbing me, hitting me, HURTING me. Huge features…the point of view from the child who is physically much smaller than they are. I always try and remember that when I am dealing with my daughter. Get down on the floor…don’t tower over her when I’m angry. Fear is not want I want her to remember me by.

It’s in me though…there have been moments of pure rage and fury when I have wanted to pick her up and force her to do my bidding. I walk away…I give myself a time out instead of giving her one. I found her in my arms once with that look on her face….she was scared.
I wanted to throw up.
I live everyday comparing myself to my parents. I’ve learned everything I should NEVER do from them.
If I do the opposite of what they would have done we might just be O.K.

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abuse, dreams, fear, fist, heal, hope, pain, red, ruins, shame, woman

Dreamer, mother, wife, friend and most of all…a captive audience of moments and memories…vivid, beautiful and breath taking…through the lens of my camera.

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Comments

  • SandeElkins
    SandeElkinsabout 6 years ago

    I love your work….this is so extremely powerful and moving yet still manages to be beautiful. Maybe that is because it reflects the strong, sensitive person you’ve become as much as it does the emotionally battered child. Such a strong statement!

  • Winslow357
    Winslow357about 6 years ago

    I am so glad you started uploaded most of your work, keep it coming baby!! Excellent work!

  • Jaeda DeWalt
    Jaeda DeWaltabout 6 years ago

    This speaks to the survivor in me.
    I love that you have the courage to bare your soul in this way. It’s a gift to us all . . .
    I admire your honesty and openness.

    I see emotional ruins, layers of pain and decay.
    I love the way the words both whisper and shout.

    I see demons, predators, whispers of a painful childhood.
    I see the woman inside the child . . .
    and i also see the adult,
    determined not to repeat the cycle.

    Visually – B R I L L I A N T
    Emotionally – C O M P E L L I N G

    p o w e r f u l

  • StacyLee
    StacyLeeabout 6 years ago

    This is brilliant work Marny! Very strong and powerful! There is so much to see in this image I could look for hours!

  • Marny Barnes
    Marny Barnesabout 6 years ago

    Thank-you everyone for the comments…this was a difficult pic to post……and yet I think it’s one of my fave works, Your comments are so appreciated!!!!!!!

  • Imber
    Imberabout 6 years ago

    Very interesting and creative – great work.

  • Thank-you Imber!!

    – Marny Barnes

  • germansaravanja
    germansaravanjaabout 6 years ago

    Great work! I had to look back a few times to see things I had missed.

  • thank you German!!!

    – Marny Barnes

  • Alateia
    Alateiaabout 6 years ago

    well i am trying marny but can’t find much to bounce back at ya. … and thats rare.

  • paulevelin
    paulevelinabout 6 years ago

    really outstanding
    love it

  • helene
    heleneabout 6 years ago

    A very powerful inner landscape that speaks to the survivor in me too. You sound like you’re doing a lot better than your parents.

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