Evolution
Stock pic of BG provided by Don Wright.
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“The childhood memories(or flashbulb pictures as they are commonly referred to) of my parents are all larger than life, looming demons of fury. Twisted angry faces, lunging at me quicker than I can get away from them, hands grabbing me, hitting me, HURTING me. Huge features…the point of view from the child who is physically much smaller than they are. I always try and remember that when I am dealing with my daughter. Get down on the floor…don’t tower over her when I’m angry. Fear is not want I want her to remember me by.
It’s in me though…there have been moments of pure rage and fury when I have wanted to pick her up and force her to do my bidding. I walk away…I give myself a time out instead of giving her one. I found her in my arms once with that look on her face….she was scared.
I wanted to throw up.
I live everyday comparing myself to my parents. I’ve learned everything I should NEVER do from them.
If I do the opposite of what they would have done we might just be O.K.
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Sande Elkins
I love your work….this is so extremely powerful and moving yet still manages to be beautiful. Maybe that is because it reflects the strong, sensitive person you’ve become as much as it does the emotionally battered child. Such a strong statement!
Winslow357
I am so glad you started uploaded most of your work, keep it coming baby!! Excellent work!
Jaeda DeWalt
This speaks to the survivor in me.
I love that you have the courage to bare your soul in this way. It’s a gift to us all . . .
I admire your honesty and openness.
I see emotional ruins, layers of pain and decay.
I love the way the words both whisper and shout.
I see demons, predators, whispers of a painful childhood.
I see the woman inside the child . . .
and i also see the adult,
determined not to repeat the cycle.
Visually – B R I L L I A N T
Emotionally – C O M P E L L I N G
p o w e r f u l
StacyLee
This is brilliant work Marny! Very strong and powerful! There is so much to see in this image I could look for hours!
Marny Barnes
Thank-you everyone for the comments…this was a difficult pic to post…...and yet I think it’s one of my fave works, Your comments are so appreciated!!!!!!!
Imber
Very interesting and creative – great work.
Marny Barnes replied
Thank-you Imber!!
German Saravanja
Great work! I had to look back a few times to see things I had missed.
Marny Barnes replied
thank you German!!!
Alateia
well i am trying marny but can’t find much to bounce back at ya. ... and thats rare.
paulevelin
really outstanding
love it
Helene Kippert
A very powerful inner landscape that speaks to the survivor in me too. You sound like you’re doing a lot better than your parents.
Glenn-Patrick ...
Powerful.
Naomi Mawson
Oh Marney – this has me a bit teary. Such a powerful way to express your memories and fears.
Marny Barnes replied
THANK-YOU.
This was one of the hardest pieces I have ever made. It dug up bits that I try to hide. A cleansing and taking out of the “trash” so to speak…but sometimes the old “worn out items” are the hardest to discard…
mychaelalchemy
again, wow…and, I love your words
I live everyday comparing myself to my parents. I’ve learned everything I should NEVER do from them.I did the same with my son and he has surpassed my greatest of expectations because I did….
Jacqueline Baker
Hi Marny..finally made it here i’ve been choca block as they say but i have to say it was worth the wait this is fantastic! Your heart is really on the page, you’ve bared your soul and shown the world the inner you and you are really beautiful despite what your parents thought! This image has been hand and soul crafted with numerous emotions in play and i salute your bravery in telling others your story!
Marny Barnes replied
Thank-you so much for your comment!
Krisso
They say, when your good your good, when your great your great….. Marny, what does that make you?... Hmmmmm, one of the best is my answer!
Marny Barnes replied
Thank-you my dear!
hugz.
PJ Ryan
Your words beside this work resonate with me so much .. very powerful.
This artwork is amazing. The insides of a box so many of us grew in .. a box accepted .. unwrapped now and utilised for better ways.
This is incredibly touching Marny
xx
Marny Barnes replied
Thankies!!!
This is one of my faves to. Close to my heart!
PJ Ryan
i love how the ceiling looks like it has mould on it ..
it’s brilliant work :)
xx
Mark Peterson
Powerful work…and words many parents need to hear. This is expression from the inside. Art at it’s best!
Ashley DeRossett
Wow! Thank you for sharing something so personal. But that is the point of art I suppose. I’ve shared some moments myself on the RB. But this is one of the best I’ve seen! Great work, and thank you for being brave. You have stopped the cycle! And so have I…
Marny Barnes
Your words touch my heart. You should be proud that you too have stopped a terrible cycle!!
Madeline M Allen
You know what I see in you Marny , Other than you are the best Photographer I know. You have courage, strength and wisdom beyond your years. You daughter is a very luck little girl to have a Mommy like you ! She will grow up like you full of love and courage , but she will have learnt it the right way ! Hugz Babe !x
Marny Barnes replied
Your words touch my heart, which is feeling a little raw right now, thank-you so very much!!!
myoriginalsin
Wow I got goosebumps reading this. Having dealt with children from an educator’s point of view, the effects of a “bad” childhood are never forgotton. Children learn by what they see. It’s that simple and that powerful.
Marny Barnes replied
I am not perfect, but it’s the dread in me that leashes in what I “know and learned’ as a child, and forces me to look at the reality of my babies faces when i am frustrated. Who could hurt a face like this and this. They are my life and my true loves.
i am glad this struck a chord, the more people face reality the better!!!!!!
Peter Evans
Superb work!!
vonne
My God Marny How did I miss this, wasnt ready to see it most likely as I sit here reading your words through tears and looking at all you have done in this pic, I am simply amazed by you yet again dear one. I cannot begin to write what I am feeling now. Yet again your words have impacted me. I Love you { HUGS } Vonne
myoriginalsin
Hi there I have featured this art work in The Redbubble Digital Alphabet because it is such an amazing piece. I hope this is ok…Check it out in my journal: The Redbubble Digital Alphabet
steen
love it
Steve Chapple
Such amazing work and such an open and bold story!
“Every man’s work, whether it be literature or music or pictures or architecture or anything else, is always a portrait of himself.”
Butler, Samuel
VanSnuG
Dear Marny,
CONGRATULATION. :-)
This Image is FEATURED on Homepage 08/17/08.
Yeah!
Madeline M Allen
CONGRATULATIONS Marny my friend for being featured on homepage !
Joanne Bradley
Strong and powerful image with though provoking words! Congrats on homepage feature!
RhondaR
This work is so powerful. Really touches the heart.
jaycee
This is soo symbolic and beautiful.
JenniferB
This is a stunning image, congrats on making the front page, a well-deserved placement! I hear you when you speak of doing the opposite to what your parents did, it’s a strange way of learning how to do the right thing, but in some cases, it’s all you can do.
ltruskett
Great, emotive work, Marny…......
Nicole Goggins
awesome work!
Chris Clark
evocative, emotional and heartfelt. Fantastic Image and sad words.
JuliaWright
Wonderful…great work!
Mike Paget
A powerful disturbing image and story
Sharon Davey
Your greatest strength is walking away and seeing new vision for the future, you have broken the boundaries enforced by the domination you were subjected to, You did not let it break Your Spirit and just accept, You kept a piece of You safe and free and now able to use that choice, that is Your greatest gift to Your child. past no longer has power is how this image strikes me You and your child walking into bright and clean future, That person in the room was you but You have chosen to walk away, turning your back on the boxed little misery life for one not always easy but Free all the same Congratulations Thankyou for sharing this heartfelt image and powerful words!!! Bless you and Good Luck on your adventures :|)
Mel Brackstone
Fantastic work Marny! Excellent thought gone into this!
Marny Barnes replied
Thanks Mel….it was hard to post. Mostly because I know that family comes here to look. But it’s the real me…the truth and I refuse to hide anymore.
Mel Brackstone
It’s very important for you to face it, and know that you’re doing the right thing by your daughter! Well done you!
Mugsy
Powerful imagery!
Marny Barnes replied
Thanks for the look mugsy. I love your work so your opinion means a ton.
jacqleen
This is WAY TOO COOL…............ wow!
Marny Barnes replied
Thank you so much!!!
Ted Byrne
It is our relationships which reinforce our self confidence. But they exist in fact and in fantasy. It’s the gulf between the two which leads to our greatest confusions. And frustrations. Frustration comes out in lots of ways. Laughter, tears, fear, uncertainty, horror, love, suspicion, affection…. nothingness… despair… denial.
You’ve captured denial so powerfully here Marny. And the wonder whether denial is a permanent state, or a portal… which opens when the blindfold comes off.
Marny Barnes replied
I spent most of my life in denial. telling myself over and over that I was fine. I had no issues. SO WRONG. I was in all actuality a complete mess. Always looking for trouble, and causing it when none was to be found. I lived for so long in chaos, I couldn’t stand the quiet. I would bring trouble to myself just to let out the storm that was building inside. Quiet and calm felt WRONG. Eerie, and desperate was my life. I do NOT miss the storms. I have learned to live without them, and I am much happer for it too!
CHAOS was all I knew as a child. Yelling hitting hiding, tiptoeing on eggshells. I am still not perfect, but every time I make a mess I vow not to do it again and try harder all over again.
Cheryl DeLong
WOW
Cheryl Dunning
fantastic work of course
Marny Barnes replied
A sincere thanks for all the comments yesterday cheryl! It is most appreciated.
Nigel Donald
Nice work!!
linifer
congratulations on the feature!!!!
Marny Barnes replied
Thanks so much!
Antanas
great work, well done
Marny Barnes replied
Thanks my friend.
RavenSoul
Fine Art Composites
Marny Barnes replied
Thanks baby!!!!
Noel Elliot
fantastic image
Michael J Armijo
Reminds me of THE COLLECTOR (movie & book by John Fowles). Outstanding image.
Artual
Your story is very, very sad, but your art is wonderful. Sometimes we have to endure pains to give something better to the world…
Ushna Sardar
Robert Armstrong
This is wonderful! Awesome colours and textures here, congrats on the feature!
Marny Barnes replied
Thank-you for the congrats! It is very much appreciated!
DragonFlyer
You are a wonderful mother. The best mothers remember what it was to be a child… for some that is much much harder than for others. Congratulations. You are doing that most amazing thing – breaking the cycle of abuse.
And you’re a pretty fine artist too :)))
Marny Barnes replied
Your comment touched my heart…thank-you in the most sincerest of thank-yous!!
Donna I
WOW…........so thought provoking.So much to take in, an outstanding image!
Jessica Rogers
Wow, so very touching, very sad to hear what you’ve been through, very brave for sharing. Great piece of art, well done you.