a new thread

when definitely maybe began to sound like a real decision
and love until further notice appeared to be just right
and a fork through the tongue was the only choice left
I realised that I hadn’t run far enough and
more running was on the horizon.

the distance needed to be further this time
than ever before,
maybe a lifetime or
at least a season or two
even a bungee jump wasn’t out of the question
if it promised relief from
indecisiveness and hurtful silence.

both can become not just tedious
but alarmingly aggressive and violently explosive
until they self-combust in a shower of periwinkle
but there is always a chance of rain and lightning
and even a snow storm is not out of the question
where this sort of grey area is concerned.

Yes, fleeing the vicinity and
taking on a new persona,
possibly one with wings this time
seemed only a short fall of the tarot cards away
and it might save the lives of innocents
or perhaps those were just memories
casualties of the last war,
which only looks like having become this war
and each battle is fought all over again
until the lessons have been learned
or have been proven wrong.

Personally, I blame fairy tales
with their seemingly easy to understand logic
and deftly hidden meanings
that are set out to confuse us
and to lead us astray between the towers of trees
until all that is left
is the gingerbread house and certain death.

Better to stick with the mermaid
and dissolve into tears
and ultimately become foam
cresting a wave and
be on top once more
even if it is only for a brief time
at least I will see the horizon
one final time before the light fails.


© Sybille Sterk
Do not copy or publish this poem in any way, shape or form without my written permission.

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Comments

  • Rhenastarr
    Rhenastarrover 2 years ago

    Awesome writing, depth of emotion sweeping along the lines. Intriguing and mesmerizing until the last line.

  • Wow! Thanks so much. It felt good when I was writing it down and it just flew onto the paper… :-) xox

    – Sybille Sterk

  • MaryMac
    MaryMacover 2 years ago

    keeping the faith in all you believe will always make sense especially those memories and tales from childhood…fairy tales are sprinkled with fairy dust which first enabled our imaginations to take flight (my heart and being will always believe in the true love and lessons learned from childhood which is pure)
    peace love and happiness always for you
    xo

  • Thanks so much Mary. I sometimes don’t know if this happy ever after belief is a good thing or a bad one. Hence the ambiguity in the poem.

    – Sybille Sterk

  • eoconnor
    eoconnorover 2 years ago

    UNDULATING EMOTION WELL DONE LIZ)

  • Thanks so much Liz. Glad you like it. :-) xo

    – Sybille Sterk

  • Aleksandar Topalovic
    Aleksandar Top...over 2 years ago

    congrats

  • Thanks so much Aleksandar. Glad you like it. :-) Much appreciate the feature. :-)

    – Sybille Sterk

  • Belinda Leopold
    Belinda Leopoldover 2 years ago

    God..this is so my situation atm….:(

  • Hope things get better for you soon Belinda. Lots of hugs. xo

    – Sybille Sterk

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindover 2 years ago

    an awesome write…other than that I don’t know what to say, except life seems to be filled with one raging disappointment after the other. I’d like to blame the fairy tales also…how unfair to fool us so young, growing up….believing….ugh.
    cannot listen to any videos until I fix this stupid computer, sorry. Sybille, somewhere, somehow there is hope, even it is but a spark now. we must hold onto it. love you and wishing you the ‘more’ you need and deserve. hugs, shar XOXOXOXOXXO ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

  • I am never sure if it is a bad thing or a good thing that the fairy tales make us believe there should be a happy ending. On the one hand, if we didn’t believe maybe we wouldn’t try for perfection, on the other hand if we didn’t believe we wouldn’t try at all. Sigh. What do I know?

    Hope you get your computer fixed soon. Lots of hugs. :-) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

    – Sybille Sterk

  • Tony Wilder
    Tony Wilderover 2 years ago

    Sybille, for me this was like writing out my feelings as I sit here now. At first one might think I need that new thread, that reinvention but I think perhaps it is the fairytale that has led us astray and it not a reinventing I need but a discovery of the truth, the true me that hasn’t subscribed to the ego and the false me’s, the perceived failures and lost loves. Somewhere down deep there is love untarnished by the ego, past and future and fairytales. As for combusting into a shower of periwinkle, I surrender. I happen to like periwinkle and my guess is that just might have to happen anyway before I see. To note, your reading of this poem made it live for me, a perfect reading. Just absolutely wonderful, could not have been more perfect.

  • Wow! Tony you just made my day! :-) So glad you liked both the poem and the reading.

    I am ambiguous about the fairy tale thing, it could be a good thing for making us TRY for perfection and a bad one for hoping for perfection. Sigh, what do I know. I think we’ll all find out eventually one way or the other. LOL

    – Sybille Sterk

  • highbeam
    highbeamover 2 years ago

    When we were all spoon fed “the happily ever after” is the part we must grow past but we should never forget what it was like to be filled with awe and wonder to life itself. I love this one Sybille, it has the measures of self… written so selflessly, and yet you pull it together where we have no doubts to why you wrote it. We should question everything… even ourselves.

  • Thanks so much Russell, I agree questioning one’s self is always a good thing, how else are we going to learn. I am still not sure about fairy tales. One the one hand they DO make us try to find the best possible outcome, on the other hand they make us hope for it and make us unhappy if we don’t achieve said best possible outcome. A constant dilemmma. …

    – Sybille Sterk

  • Lisa  Jewell
    Lisa Jewellover 2 years ago

    we have so much in common….how I adore periwinkle. I know exactly how you are feeling and what you are thinking…wow

  • I think I was thinking of you with the periwinkle. I love the synchronicity on RB and how we spark off each other and the creative pool just seems to sparkle more because of it. :-) xoxo ♥

    – Sybille Sterk

  • su2anne
    su2anneabout 2 years ago

    a strong and powerful write Sybille
    yet so very very sad…
    x suzanne:))

  • Thanks so much Suzanne. I’ve always preferred the sad (but true) fairy tales to the ones with the happy endings… give me the Little Mermaid over Sleeping Beauty any day. xo

    – Sybille Sterk

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