What If?

In my head
I’m someone else
I lead a different life
I wear white with pride
not black in shame
it’s in technicolour
not film noir

There’s a song
playing on my mind
it has a beat like a heart
not a dirge, not the blues
it’s bright
it’s fun
it’s strong

There’s a sense
that something’s wrong
with my mind
with my soul
inside is out
outside is in
and the way is blocked

In my head
I’m not me
but someone else
on the path not taken
to a different future
somewhere over there
and the door is shut

There’s a sound
through the walls
whispering ghosts
sisters and twins
decisions made
options lost
stuck here forever.

© Sybille Sterk
Do not copy or publish this poem in any way shape or form without my written permission.

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I am an avid fan of Fringe – it’s my favourite tv series ever, and it made me think about the choices we make in life and where they take us and how different our lives might have been if we’d just made one single different choice somewhere along the way….

I am a very creative person and it’s my way of dealing with the world, inside and out. I am only happy when I am making things or painting or writing. There are just not enough hours in the day…. I am into poetry and photo manipulation at the moment and also dabbling in photography. :-)

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  • BasantSoni
    BasantSoniabout 3 years ago

    Marvelous expression ..keeping other head in u

  • :-) Thank you so much Basant.

    – Sybille Sterk

  • 8upchef
    8upchefabout 3 years ago

    Well said…It is healthy for us to look back, keeps us focused on where we are, and where we aim.

  • Thank you so much. :-)

    – Sybille Sterk

  • eoconnor
    eoconnorabout 3 years ago


  • Thank you so much Liz. :-)

    – Sybille Sterk

  • TheWanderingBoo
    TheWanderingBooabout 3 years ago

    great write

  • Many, many thanks Simon. :-)

    – Sybille Sterk

  • Cosimo Piro
    Cosimo Piroabout 3 years ago

    ahh yes, I sometimes have the sense that I’m walking two or more different paths… different futures… I sometimes wonder if the other thinks the same of me. I love the extension of self that this explores. xoxo

  • Thank you so much Cos. I agree, sometimes it feels like someone’s looking over my shoulder. LOL xoxo

    – Sybille Sterk

  • Donna19
    Donna19about 3 years ago

    I think it is when we stop questioning and exploring possibilities that the creative mind stills.

  • LOL that’ll never happen then! Thank you so much Donna. xo

    – Sybille Sterk

  • highbeam
    highbeamabout 3 years ago

    Kick that damn doorstop if you have to and let the real you out. LOL Just let us know how you feel Sybille. I see sparks!

  • Thank you so much Russell. :-) xo

    – Sybille Sterk

  • SimplyRed
    SimplyRedabout 3 years ago

    oh Sybille …you do" it" so well a superb piece of writing…the “what if’s” leave us all asking questions and thank you for searching ….adore the thought :)) xx

  • Thank you so much Red. My head is constantly a cauldron of questions… Bubbling…. LOL xo

    – Sybille Sterk

  • BabyM2
    BabyM2about 3 years ago

    what if’s i know those words so well..this captures what we all must feel from time to time..

  • Thank you so much. :-)

    – Sybille Sterk

  • RosaCobos
    RosaCobosabout 3 years ago

    We are we then…and where?….Sybille..
    I think..I understand your inside..then. We cannot think ourselves..
    nor see with our own eyes…our eyes…yes…we are at the end..
    someone else.
    Rosa (highly phylosophical,…questioning…)

  • Thank you so much Rosa. :-)

    – Sybille Sterk

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