Im heart ill at the moment, more med ill I think and the toxic buildup from my heart meds is making me toxic. Ive had a bad few days. But over the weekend we went to the new house to get some photos. Ive got an interview coming up and they wanted a photo of me. A bit hesitant to give them one of my sps, I asked Tony to take some for me, something I never let anyone do. I prefer to take my own, I then only have me to show my vulnerability to. After my usual face pulling, idiotic poses and " I dont want to do this anymore " he finally got in close and personal, the same thing I do with my victims. For a minute I found it intruding, it felt wrong somehow. And then all of a sudden I caught something in the lens, and I started really looking. And what I saw scared me. I looked and I looked hard. And then he broke me and I started to cry. This is the result of one of those photos, one that I wish Id taken, but then that would mean I’d have to let myself in.

50 mm prime lens Canon Eos 7D


madworld, house, broken, broke, tears, vulnerable


  • Wendi Donaldson
    Wendi Donaldsonalmost 3 years ago

    Oh wow….Tracey…. no one says it like you do!! VERY touching and poignant. Tony did you proud, girl!
    Sure hope you’re feeling better VERY soon! xox Hugs!

  • Didnt he just, thanks Wendi :P

    – madworld

  • jason21
    jason21almost 3 years ago

    This is such a cool shot. Love the B&W and your eyes tell the story

  • Thanks Jason, very much appreciated :)

    – madworld

  • Denise Abé
    Denise Abéalmost 3 years ago

    WOW beautiful work :) xxx

  • Thanks Denise :P

    – madworld

  • Farfarm
    Farfarmalmost 3 years ago

    What a story…thanks for telling it…the picture is the proof !

  • Thank you :)

    – madworld

  • annacuypers
    annacuypersalmost 3 years ago

    So poetic and beautiful Tracey, hope you will feel better soon hon. Love your words with it, I do recognize what you mean… But please try to let yourself in, I’m sure you’ll find a strong and beautiful woman, love, anna Xxox

  • Thanks Anna, its hard eh, but Im ok with it most of the time, sometimes though Id like to know what Im really like :P

    – madworld

  • Rickster1
    Rickster1almost 3 years ago

    Tony can take the lead Tracy and lighten the burden of that which troubles you….
    To find the true self is one of the most richest things one can achieve but sometimes we need to lean on those that matter on the journey that is life.
    Bloody Hot Imagery both from Photographer and Subject ~ Stay brave guys and bounce of each other always…
    Good luck Trace
    Best regards Rick

  • Ah nothing really troubles me, just confuses me sometimes. I trust too much I think, always a bad thing. Thanks for the great comment :P

    – madworld

  • jacqleen
    jacqleenalmost 3 years ago

    okay…I’m ALL TEARED up here…Tracey, first of all, YOU R BEAUTIFUL..
    and what you wrote…just BROKE me too…I’m soooooooo glad you and Tony got to really DO this…I know all about NOT wanting anyone else to take my pics…so I sooo relate!
    I DO HOPE you are FEELING BETTER and please hang in there…I hate all meds. so I know how horrible they make you feel, even though they say its suppose to HELP!

  • Ah thanks lovely Jacqleen. Im feeling ok, maybe winter blues eh. xx

    – madworld

  • Laura E  Shafer
    Laura E Shaferalmost 3 years ago

    Love,love,love this!!! Yes! :)

  • Thanks very much Laura, really appreciate the comment

    – madworld

  • Lauren Tober
    Lauren Toberalmost 3 years ago


  • Thanks Lauren :P

    – madworld

  • Peter Denniston
    Peter Dennistonalmost 3 years ago

    Encapsulating capture, Tony did good :)

  • Thanks very much Peter, appreciate your comment as always :P

    – madworld

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