My time is already running late by Mui-Ling Teh

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It is half past six in the morning,
I cannot sleep; my bed feels cold.
My window is already glowing,
And I am crying like a six year old.

My only wish is the same as before;
I have not asked for anything more.
How long do I have to wait?
My time is already running late.

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Well, this my first upload since the latest changes in RB took place – I hope my description won’t be missed…

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Self-portrait asleep in an hourglass feeling more weight from lost time each day…

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All images and textures used are my own; and I combined everything in Photoshop.

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I don’t actually own an hourglass so I created this image by combining two photos of wine glasses

The background is a close-up of my paper weight that consists of colourful beads in a liquid; while I held it vertically I thought the beads looked like baubles slowly falling like snowflakes…

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I don’t usually ask for much nowadays, there would be nothing new that I really want; I can happily spend hours watching the world outside my window, or finding beauty in the mundane – my imagination is all I need. For a few years however, there has been one thing I constantly wanted. There are other things I’d love to have, some maybe even more, but I can accept not having them because it maybe too much to ask for; or, in some ways, it would be better for myself, or people around me, if I didn’t have them. Meanwhile there are some things that just cannot be helped; or too late to ask for. This one thing on my mind however, I still yearn it – in some ways need it. If I can just have that one thing; that alone will already put me to ease, but time is running out…

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A few years ago, I made a decision, though events that occurred since may have proven that decision to be the wrong one. I couldn’t have judged the situation before however; – if things happened differently, (i.e. if certain incidents didn’t occur) it could have been a good decision, but unfortunately that wasn’t the case – and to this day I still lose sleep over it. It isn’t a situation one cannot understand easily, but it has been constantly on my mind, and I became a different person. I was under a spell; my character changed – often moody and unpleasant; and I’m unable to break the spell unless I can reverse the consequences. I still have time now, but like the prince, in Beauty and the Beast, who was transformed into a beast by a spell, I can do no more after the last petal falls.

When Beauty entered the beast’s life, his life began to look brighter, and likewise I started to feel better upon a bit of help which, at the least, allowed me to get back my desire to do art again. But even as the beast had Belle in his life, he didn’t change back immediately. My curse hasn’t been lifted yet, and I’m left wondering if it will before the last petal falls… I’m as anxious as the beast who counted his time left as the rose petals fell; or as a captive Dorothy who watched the red sand falling after being told by the Wicked Witch of the West, “You see this? This is all the time you have left to live!” as she turned the hourglass upside down; or Princess Jasmine who was getting buried under the sand of the hourglass that the sorcerer Jafar trapped her in.

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If I can be saved, not only would my mind be at peace, but I would be better person to myself and others around me.

If not, I’ll accept it… I’ll have to do my best to control my temper and attitude; even if that means I’m forcing myself to do or say something, be somewhere, or be with someone, but not really doing or meaning it with my heart. I will not always be able to control that though, and people around me will need to understand that when I’m moody, or not keen to be around people, I’m like that for a reason.

I can cope if I were left alone – in my own world…and someday…

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  • © Pauline Wherrell
    © Pauline Wher...almost 2 years ago

    This is so so beautiful Mui-Ling and you put so much or your own spirit and soul into it. I loved reading your description – it really needs to be read with this work and amazing to read how you created the effects. I personally do not believe that we make wrong decisions. I think all decisions are the right ones and if we think otherwise then we still have something to learn. I see life as a learning experience but I do hope it all works out for you before your time runs out! A very personal beautiful emotional work!

  • Thank you Pauline. I really do hope people will look at the description of this piece. There is actually a lot more I could have said, though maybe I’ll explain another day… was having another one of those moments of my mind bursting with my thoughts and eager to be shared immediately.

    – Mui-Ling Teh

  • Mui-Ling Teh
    Mui-Ling Tehalmost 2 years ago

    It is half past six in the morning,
    I cannot sleep; my bed feels cold.
    My window is already glowing,
    And I am crying like a six year old.

    My only wish is the same as before;
    I have not asked for anything more.
    How long do I have to wait?
    My time is already running late.

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    Wrote the top half of the verse over a month ago; the bottom half was written the night/morning of Nov 27, 2012, and I spent the following two days putting together this artwork. Posted today; December 1, 2012.

    © Copyright Mui-Ling Teh. All rights reserved.

  • © Janis Zroback
    © Janis Zrobackalmost 2 years ago

    This is lovely MuiLing…very sad….. dreaming and waking to a reality that might not match up….

  • islefox
    islefoxalmost 2 years ago

    You express yourself beautifully in both the imagery and in words, really good work

  • Carol and Mike Werner
    Carol and Mike...almost 2 years ago

    Fabulous image, Mui-Ling . . . and I did check the description. Too bad they’re not still on the same page with the comments. The glasses make a great hour glass . . . excellent work!

  • Glad you like it; and thank you so much for checking it out with the description. Yes, it is too bad they are not still on the same page; it does seem like my comments are coming in slowly today…

    Of course, as mentioned in the description, I’ve got more important things to think about; and if I get through that, things like RB changes and less visits will be no big deal to me; I still love it here, and appreciate those who view and comment my work today. Perhaps I’m even happier with a few visiting who are really deeply reading into my work and keeping me in their thoughts after, rather than just coming and going. Thank you again, and wish you a lovely weekend.

    – Mui-Ling Teh

  • Heather King
    Heather Kingalmost 2 years ago

    Mui-Ling I am astounded, spellbound, riveted, haunted, SPEECHLESS over this creation! I have goosebumps. I actually started screaming some excited profanities at the screen in magical disbelief over how intense and beautifully heartbreaking this is. EVERYTHING you want to say, you SCREAM it in everything you do. I adore this. This is my favourite to date piece of yours. My heart hurts for you because I can feel the pain, the heartache, the devastation. YOU ARE AN INCREDIBLE ARTIST AND PHOTOGRAPHER. I hope you are incredibly proud of this one!
    you said “I’m able to break the spell unless I can reverse the consequences” This seems to be quiet the heavy weight that seems to plague your beautiful soul at all times…
    “If I can be saved, not only would my mind be at peace, but I would be better person to myself and others around me.” I can relate to.
    I wish there was some way I could help you on this journey. I wish there was some way I could help you attain what your heart and mind desires. Thank you for blessing us with such a brilliant creation.

  • Dearest Heather, you have made my day ? And I also knew very well you could relate – and your incredible comment proves it so very well – that alone makes me very proud of this piece. I am very glad you like it because I most certainly have put a lot of energy into this piece. I too value our friendship very much and wish I could do more for you. Thank you also for the lovely bubblemails; I will try to catch up with you soon; though I have to admit, after working on this piece continuously for 2 days I feel a bit drained (I think the draining feeling has more to do with letting my feelings out than the labour of the artwork itself). Thinking of you too; take care x

    – Mui-Ling Teh

  • Just realized I made a typo in my description earlier; mean to say “I’m unable to break the spell unless I can reverse the consequences” – though I’m sure you already knew that ?

    – Mui-Ling Teh

  • labaker
    labakeralmost 2 years ago

    I wish you all the best Mui-Ling, be happy……lovely work and words :)

  • Thank you Larry; I know (if I remember correctly) you have yourself to think about too; as well you keep many in need in your thoughts. You have a wonderful heart, and I appreciate you giving me some room in there too xx

    – Mui-Ling Teh

  • Isabela M. Lamuño
    Isabela M. Lamuñoalmost 2 years ago

    it is quite creative the way you used the wine glasses to resemble an hourglass. i love the symbolism and meaning, although only the creator shall ever truly know and cherish it, i still enjoy being the spectator from the outside looking in, for it has touchen my soul. this is quite powerful and my best wishes to you.

  • Thank you dear Ixchel for reading so much into my work; I am pleased to hear it has touched your soul. You are very bright and gifted while very young. I hope you would never have to go through what I have – the experience, as stated, made me halt on creating for a long time. Though I have begun doing so again, there are still pieces of my heart missing and so I appreciate the wishes very much; it is what I need most. Best wishes to you too x.

    – Mui-Ling Teh

  • PhotogeniquE IPA
    PhotogeniquE IPAalmost 2 years ago

    great image

  • Valerie Anne Kelly
    Valerie Anne K...almost 2 years ago

  • Thank you xx

    – Mui-Ling Teh

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