Meditation in itself is a wonderful thing
body and mind become one and at peace in the moment
though with me……
I have found great demons unleashed in the waking hours of post meditation
as if, the relaxation brought them to the fore
because I dared to try and exorcise them, how dare I try such a wicked thing….
they more than float around my head, they take all of me and make me hateful.
I hurt so bad I want to scream at the perpetrators of my pain, I want so much for them to know what they have done.
All self help and empowering straight out of the window
as the beasts walk casually in, through my open door.
You better watch out whilst I am invaded with alien thoughts of loathsome content, you seriously could be on my list of attack, so watch your back, boys and girls
terror is about to unfurl in the image of me.
And I am stopping now, as I am afraid of what I might say or do in the event of my death and the aftermath
A few years ago, I tried yoga, each week became increasingly difficult, as my emotions were so heigtened during the following days. I was told that I was spiritual and to roll with it. i did try, but, gave up, as my emotions were running out of control. This week, I meditated again, and, yes you have guessed it, the same thing happened. I reckon meditation is just not the way forward for me……….. Smile. lesson learnt