Misery

So much of sadness in my heart, but where do i start?
i have no idea but i just want it to stop
cause i am feeling ‘sick’ and starting to fall apart
but sadly there’s noone to turn to or comfort my heart
i cant seem to let my loved ones know how i feel
and it really ticks me off cause i cant seem to share my thoughts
it made many people think i dont care or trust them
causing me to lose them and add on to my hurt
as each day goes by the hurt grows in me
some days i go to bed crying and wake up crying all ova again
sometimes i ask myself “why did i wake up”, “why i’m still around”
till i have to convince myself i’m happy which sometimes ends in vein
the more sadness i feel the more and more i hate myself
wondering if i should just put an end to all of this hurt
but sadly the only solution i see is suicide, an easy way out
which i would just hate myself for it and rather just live with a torn up heart
why cant i get rid of all or at least some of my sadness
its in my heart so long, it made a comfy little home and now refuses to leave
i’d rather trade my heart for a vacant, emotionless one
than be torn apart little by little by my own hurting hear

  • blackvixen

    blackvixen

    it hurts sooo much to hear dis honest words…..it hurts me more as i am ure friend…as a mere reader i wud have to say this is ur best piece… sooo very real and honest revealing ure naked soul….as a friend it hurts to know u hurt this much….but darling ure not alone…lovya loads

    your
    renee….

  • LucifersChic replied

    thx gurl.. juz sharin my thots.. felt lyk i waz dyin ystd n juz needed 2 let it out a lil..

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