This self portrait was taken in 2008, the year before I got plagued with lyme disease (not diagnosed until a month ago).
I can’t believe the low self opinion I had of myself then. It is the same opinion I share currently.
Unfortunately the disease I am plagued by has taken my mind and body hostage. No longer can I have long hair due to neck pain, no longer do I fit into those clothes. No longer can I be active to perform activities of daily living as I once did. My body is bloated, swollen and covered in edema.
The positive in all of this, is I have learned to love myself as a person, as a heart and soul throughout this all, more than I have before.
It will take years of heavy antibiotics, a strict diet, and gentle work outs but I believe I can return to who I was and totally took for granted.
The saddest part of having your body fail you and being over weight is the judgements. People assume because one isn’t ‘slim’ that they overeat, or eat junk, this is not the case. I have had actual hate mail and really mean letters from strangers and people I considered friends who are no longer. I can’t believe we still live in a day in age where someone’s soul is judged upon their appearance. It is tragic.
I am eternally grateful for those who love and accept me for who and how I am.
upport them and steer them towards the light in times of darkness!
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colored version here