I must shake myself from this nightmare of hold...

and the tears are flowing…
I went from laughing to crying.. after hearing his voice on the phone..
why does he not get it?..
he says he does.. no he does not.. he was not crying..
only I……………………was…
lonely hearts club for me tonight…
must find a distraction again to bring myself up..
dinner and my shows.. wow how exciting is my life..
but again..as he said.. it is what it is…

only I can make it different………
it’s just another night….
like many before..
as I waited for him to walk …
through the door..
now.. the door stays locked and shut…
like me.. stuck in this rut…
darkness, lonely.. heartbroken and sad…

I just want to live…….

Live again..not be affected by someone like him..
who brings me down when I even hear his name..
and his voice… I quiver.. because it still causes much pain…
because I hear the sounds of when he loved me…
in tones of music and content…
he is great with playing magic… in the matter of hearts…
he is killing me slowly and softly..
bit by bit..
part by part…
I must think…
I must get a hold…
I must shake myself from this nightmare of hold…
Release him I say.. let him go….
Easier said than done for those whom have never loved…
He has taken my sunshine away ….today…
Again!

written by linmarie on 10/17/2012
after much healing.. but all it took was having to hear his voice over the phone.. because of things we now must discuss.. you know the important things now. finances and such….

I must shake myself from this nightmare of hold...

linmarie

Joined May 2009

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my raw emotions of a scorned woman.
the fragments of what is left of my soul.. stolen by a selfish man…
after many years of dedication.. yes this is written in the first person.. the person dealing with the pain, the heart ache and loss.. trying to find her self again amongst all the unanswered questions and lies…

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