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I got through the day….
Surrounded with family…
Embraced in love… and understanding…
But now its late… my heart is breaking again…
Because truly the one I want to end my night with…
Is gone…making a new life…
Has no clue the tears that are flowing…
Down my cheeks…my nose drizzles with the wash…
Of overloaded watering down my cheeks…
Music was making me happy..
Music is now making me sad…
My mind keeps reeling back too times….
He held me in his arms and carried me…
Across the dance floor… and nothing else mattered…
The world around us did not exist in that moment…
Only our locking eyes and breathless heart beats…
And the long, delicious kiss that lasted all through the song…
The thought of life together was full of bliss.. when I said YES..
Too the ring he offered up with promise too never leave my side…
I am still wearing mine.. because I made a promise…
He does not… since the night he tore out my heart…
And stomped on it…again and again…
I am weak…yet I want to be strong…
I am sick inside… but I have a hard shell on the outside…
Pictures are taken down… can not stop the tears…
If I walk by a memory of what love once was…
Between he and I…the water works flow…
His eyes… his blue eyes… still pierce me through and through…
His stern, strong, muscular face makes me still feel safe…
OMG… someone slap me… wake me up from this dream…
That repeats in my head and heart…
Because he took the high road and left me in the dirt…
So all pictures of him in frames… I took down today…
From all our walls and shelves…
And secret hiding places…
I can no longer walk pass his wondering eyes…
I need to find comfort…my pain needs to go away…
Far… far away… because music, quotes and biblical verse…
Are just not getting me there…
It is the Sixth night since he left…
It’s Friday night… who is holding him…
All I know is… it’s not me…
You see at one time … he loved me for being…
Artistic and poetic…but like a wilting rose…
That has now become boring… time to put me to rest…
Set aside with respect… well maybe…
Leaving a heart with unanswered questions…
Feels like the crunching of autumn leaves…
Broken, forgotten and blowing in the wind…
Never to be seen again…
Beware my lost love… I always come back…
With more strength, color, and determination…
Than the last season where you left me…
And I will look very different…
Like a mushroom sprouting up… leafs all surround…
My skin and shape all anew…
My perspective on life… fresh, young…
And ready to spread new spores of wisdom…
Too those whom also became abandoned and lonely…
For too create a forest… there must be a lonely seed…
Whom will be…………………….
A leader… a Mother…a Parent… a Friend…
That wants to create a colony… which means family…
I am just that seed…You can not step on me…or stop me…
You can not Stop me…no you can not stop me!

Written by a heart broken woman…09/07/2012
AKA.. Llinda Surface
AKA.. on REDBUBBLE… linmarie
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the story of the break up of a marriage…
one partner was so in love and secure with the thought the other felt the same…
time finally broke that fantasy…. a fool the smitten one had been played..
for cheating had become the players game..
the loser was the one too shed tears when deceit became…

I am a self taught artist and have drawn and painted since I could hold crayons or a pencil in my hands..
My brain is an attic filled with treasures yet to be explored or recreated.. I am a Veteran,a wife, a mom, a grandmother, a sister, a daughter and a teacher!!! My pallet is full of life, color and energy.. I hope you will see and feel that in all of my artwork.

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Comments

  • Corri Gryting Gutzman
    Corri Gryting ...over 2 years ago

    Big hugs, linmarie. Big, big hugs.

  • thanks for the hugs Corri.. those hugs are so important to me right now…♥

    – linmarie

  • Sherri     Nicholas
    Sherri Nic...over 2 years ago

    what a great write Linmarie..whoa..what a tear jerker Linamare…if fact lots of tears…those tears are shed around the world everyday..sad…I don’t think to many could have written this story about two whom fell in love and and thru life somehow got lost…
    you are a amazing friend and writer artist…and how proud your family must be of your dear Li;nmarie…llove , pe ace and lots of huggs

  • my dear sweet Sherri.. I can not even express how wonderful I feel reading your response to my write.. and your support, and I feel your love.. thank you.. my pain will become a message to others. and paintings for eyes to see……………………….♥

    – linmarie

  • JRGarland
    JRGarlandover 2 years ago

    I am devestated to read such tragedy. I am so sorry to see such pain and true bewilderment of chain of events. My heart goes out to you my precious friend. Hange in there and know I’m just a whisper away.

  • thank you so very much my sweet friend…. I find your words so comforting tonight.. since sleep will not allow me…. this has been the trend for the last six nights. the seventh night.. I think my Lord will guide me to peace and rest… just want that soft place to fall right now….my music is blaring in the other room. to help me drown out bad thoughts.. and keep me dancing … so I will not take a walk with my bum knee towards the river..the trail.. my favorite place to be… which I have not been to in months……………… wow.. just now realizing how much my life has changed.. but the Marine Father up bringing… is being heavenly sent for me to behave myself. stiff upper neck. shoulders back.. make him and myself proud…. but what to hell does any of that have to do with a broken heart… if I ever figure this out.. I will share it with the world and become a……………………..Oh.. I do not know.. I have been called so many names this last week.. I DO NOT even know what identity I am.. so thank goodness the Lord has given me the gift to create and write.. even if it just gets me thru…But in the mean time.. I can not stop crying.. thank you for letting me know .. you feel my pain.. I love you John♥

    – linmarie

  • Lori Peters
    Lori Petersover 2 years ago

    I am so sorry that you have to endure this pain, linmarie. As I was reading this, I hoped it wasn’t happening to you. It happens to so many people at this time of life. That doesn’t make it any easier. I am going to bed soon and will pray for you. Hugs, Lori. ♥♥♥

  • but it is… thanks so much my dear friend … sleep tight. we can catch up later with hugs and support…

    – linmarie

  • Donna Keevers Driver
    Donna Keevers ...over 2 years ago

    I am so sorry for your pain, Linmarie…

    But the loser is the one that walked away.

    {{{{{{{{LOVING HUGS}}}}}}}

  • then why does it hurt so much… thanks so much Donna for your love and support.. hugging you back♥

    – linmarie

  • sarnia2
    sarnia2over 2 years ago

    My first husband left in 1996….broken-hearted? Oh yes…with one 4 year old to look after….and on and on…..
    He thought I wouldn’t get a life……I would fall down flat……..but you know, yes after 4 years I remarried and I did make a life for myself.
    I’ve never loathed him and when I saw him recently I realised that he is the loser…..not me….so
    can I say I understand?? Oh yes…I can, and even in our darkest moments when all the questions come in and you start to doubt yourself you will come to realise that you are still beautiful, you are still you, and if someone cannot love for who you are then they aren’t worth it…even though you may not see that just now.
    BIg (((((((HUGS))))))) linmarie Lots of love, Angie

  • Ohhh,, my dear Angie. your words and wisdom are helpful. my family has been surrounding me all day.. but they all have lasting marriages.not necessarily happy and understanding relationships.. but lasting so far.. so they do not know how to approach me in this matter of the broken heart… except to coddle and protect me… and that is all so very important to helping me heal.. but it does not take away the pain.. thank you for sharing your story with me.. 1996 is the year I met this husband.. we melded two families together. my 3 children.. his 2 children.. and 16 yrs.. later.. we have 10 grand children between us.. so many are affected… I think. .. you are right.. I do not know what to think.. I do not know how to feel even.. I am just numb.. so thank you my sister.. I am putting my faith in my Lord.. there is a reason for this… hugs and love back at you my sweet ANGIE!

    – linmarie

  • Donna19
    Donna19over 2 years ago

    Moving me beyond words Linmarie. Just keeping you in my thoughts. xoxo

  • thanks so very much Donna♥

    – linmarie

  • eoconnor
    eoconnorover 2 years ago
    I AM SO SAD TO READ THESE WORDS AND TO FEEL YOUR DEVISTATION.I SEND YOU HUGGS IOF QIET AND PEACEFULKLNESS TO HELP YPU OVERCOME THIS LINMARIE.KEEP YOUR FAMILY CLOSE THEY LOVE YOU ! LIZ
  • I am so very sorry my dear friend Liz.. I missed this wonderful, heartfelt comment from you between all my tears.. thank you from the bottom of my heart for your love, hugs and wishful thoughts of peace in my life.. hugs back at you my friend♥

    – linmarie

  • CanyonWind
  • thank you very much for this feature and honor!

    – linmarie

  • Evita
    Evitaover 2 years ago

    Excellent work… Congratulations 2nd Runner-Up !
    The Editors Weekly Choices September 3rd – 10th 2012
    The World As We See It , or as we missed it. Group

  • thank you very much Evita for all you do.. and I am honored this piece was chosen amongst all the great writers we have in our group… I am humbled!

    – linmarie

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