It is like a wall of ruffeled feathers
I kinda want to lay in them and shout though the puffyness
That I love her
But not so sure I can do this since
The vibrations we both occupy are on two different channels
She would not hear how much I adore her
Would she hear how much I appreciate her
What I have learned is
No matter what;
everyone is doing what they need to do
To get more of what they desire,
I don’t look to them for change nor do I
ask myself what I can do more
to ‘fix it’
I ride my day out and when they come up in my head I think of things I enjoy about them and then perhaps turn my attention to what is right in front of me, a good book, a cupa coffee.
I do not rule anyone’s happiness nor do they rule mine.
I like that
They are off the hook and so am I…
My job is my mind and heart so why not remember what I like about that person instead of questioning what does not seem to work right now.
I have done this and it works. I can feel better no matter what state the picture of ‘us’ seems to look like.
Creating is an ongoing process.
working on some stuff with many people all the time… the she is a he too, not specific, but a reminder when I doubt my relationship with anyone this frame of reference as to how to handle this kind of thinking really is what works for me. Its like a baby’s formula when I feel pouty and a bit pissed or irritated with ‘people’ in my life… adored or otherwise. I do become about 5 years old when I cannot figure a situation out.
I begin to grow up using this process.