Waxing Statues
Everything is so overwhelming today.. I feel just like this poem
We changed the course of each other’s lives.
A tower of strength came through the corpuscles
Free floating phantoms making up heartbeats
That spring forth generational lyrics to love songs
Some forgotten and those yet to be written.
I timed the beats in my head as I lay on your chest
Wispy and Soulful
Pink and a little nasty too.
Only when we’re not looking
The devil rises up and says to die.
I felt this today
A death breathing softly and asking me
Why go on?
Aren’t you tired of trying?
The biggest wave was while I was
Cleaning and waxing my statues
Molded and carved out of lies and mysteries
Past golden history
What’s not to like about living?
When turning round you’re standing there
Arms outstretched
You don’t deny anything
While I cry and say
It’s all too good darling
It’s all gonna change
Everyday I get closer to not knowing
Who we will be
Who I will..
You pat my head like my mother used to do
I miss her smile
I miss my past
The future seems like it is crawling up my spine
And I don’t like crawling things
No way
But I still hear your heart beat
And your silence is like communion
Something holy and unassuming.
I think you know I can only figure this one out.
The future looks bright
(I reach for the shades)
I really don’t know if I have a sunny disposition at all
Completion is like the end like the fall
And all those beginnings are what I don’t want to face
No, not at all.
Thoughts like that?
Tis the Devil
Tis Death
Linaji 2009
erich biemer
warm and breathing….the heartbeat of your joy will in the end always trump your fear…
linaji replied
Already breathing a bit better for the writing dear Erich.. thank you.x
bill bell
You always amaze Lina, completion is like the fall, it’s hard to keep the mind on one journey. Those thoughts are the devil and death, yet they come every day. Love this one, like when you write like this :)
linaji replied
Bill, everything I have attempted to do as in business venture or otherwise has always been with someone else.. this one is mine alone.. and there is something so ‘other’ about it. So pushy, and a bit condescending.. or maybe aaaahhh sending.. lolol … thank you.
BiographyofRed8
hmm… interesting piece, it isn’t really til the end that I really understood, but whatever name negative thoughts go by, sometimes it is necessary to have names for those words and thoughts..
(((huggles))))))
linaji replied
well I have to tell you.. I was not using much metaphor in naming the thoughts.. persistent like little ‘no see ums’ a small black bug that can bite the hell out of you!
I love these huggles.. really feel good today.. thanks Red.
ShadowDancer
Holy SHIT Lina… god i’ve felt this way so many times… and even today as well. i was wondering about you again, actually.. something pulling my attention to you. i went to your page and found this just added. were you reading my own heart? such horrid thoughts those are, and yet so comfortable and velveteen as they slip around our gilded mind… why is it that they can block the light so easily? it’s something i’ve fought all my life. you – i wouldn’t call you a sunny position, i call you a radiant light. there is a difference, you know, sweet lina. you’re a guide to so many, and you see more than most of us see, looking and peering deep within yourself, attuned to the vibrations of our mother, so far down that you connect with so many people, you bring them to you like a magnet. i’m sorry i’m rambling… but i’ve felt so bottled up today and this was, well, just what i needed to set things free. you will continue your path, figuring things out, you have the answers already, just sometimes those darn devilish thoughts cloud you up… but they are needed things, because they help us appreciate the world when the fog clears. love you lina. this was brilliant. xxx
linaji replied
reading this just makes me cry.. I had little tears but now the floodgates are open.. you and I seem destine… I have not anwered so many replies.. I am overwhelmed and feel guilty for taking this moment to write out my feelings.. but damn now.. see.. what a connection to living and love we seem to possess.. thank you sweetheart.. forgive my unattentiveness.. this thing.. these thingsa are so real and wonderful and yet.. yes you did indeed feel my vibe sister sweetly.. amen.. xxxooo
Trenchtownrock
This is such a brilliant write my sweet friend..your poetry takes my mind away and let me reside in your world for instance seeing the pat on the head…smile..an outstretched arm…many lines in this piece that stood out but mostly…I timed the beats in my head as I lay on your chest
Wispy and Soulful
Pink and a little nasty too.
Only when we’re not looking
The devil rises up and says to die.
awesome writing.
linaji replied
yah.. in this case I was both of these Beings.. thanks so much my darling Chris.. surprise how much better I feel.. I truly was cleaning my home.. and waxing and then I had to stop and let some of this stuff goo.. Your truly just a caress on my soul today .. xxxOOO
skinnyman
There is so much for you to enjoy dear lina, fears for the future are only opprtunities to change within. I love your writing when this mood takes you. xx
linaji replied
Say Peter.. nice to see you today.. and thanks so much for your tender words.. xxx
F.A. Moore
Yep, you can do the beginnings, Lina; you can; and do them well you shall (and ARE!)
linaji replied
Dearest Fran.. I image with all that you have been successful on your own..you know this to be so.. thank you for your smile today and your kind vote that this will pass… sometimes it is strange.. I am just wondering.. is it as you get older you have been feed the belief of slowing down..and it is like this part of my life is speeding up more than I have ever experienced.. and I am a bit feeling.. off kilter.. anyway.. thanks Fran so very much
marieangel
compassionate write once again..and one of my favourite sayings is…..to know where we are going we need to know where we came from..(beginnings) you have come such a long way no need to be so hard on yourself…pat yourself on the spiritual back ..you are loved;))
linaji replied
Darling Marie.. aka.. sweet Angel.. thank you so very much.. yes.. it is always beginnings.. the koan of the ancients.. you are so very very kind.. xxx
devotee1
Would be nice to just be able to stop in that one perfect moment with that seeming near perfect someone (perfect enough)...toss far from my mind certain knowledge like, things do change—I change; is it out there the devil, perhaps in the person of someone else or just me again? How will business take hold of me, it does have a way of owning me at times—I guess like a baby clings too the mother, though always loving there are times I would just rather be alone (stop the world I want to get off). I cannot let the child sense this, the business, the earth. God this gets more confusing when it should be getting easier for me. Love your writing! Hope I didn’t read too much into this, but be pleased for me for I sure needed to vent. xox
linaji replied
Our stars have crossed like Golden spheres.. thank you my dear Joe.. I feel so NOT.. alone..xxxx
hsien-ku
I don’t like crawling things either – your writing is so resonant with truth. the sanctuary of another while moments bleed from us at a faster and faster pace. wonderful poetry!
linaji replied
Oh my darling.. I know there would be a way for you to find the words for one that is starting over again and again and see’s not an ending in sight!! I have just commented to our dear Lianne how wearing even a glimpse of that (eternity) feels today.. your blessed.. and I thank you!
Jack Grace
Those damn statues, some days they’re so shiny, how do they get that way, hmmmm?
linaji replied
The devil made me do it Jack.. (tehee..xxx)
lianne
Lina – this is just completely lovely, honest, warm and true – such a very real admission of both our fears and our hopes and the comfort of being held and loved enough to keep the fears at bay just for a while. And we have all felt this little death crawling up our spines – that shiver of terror at the unknown future. But yours, dear Lina – it is indeed bright and positive and filled with love and joy. You are growing into yourself, becoming, always becoming YOU – who you were meant to be and that is ever and always a thing of beauty.
linaji replied
Dearest Dear Lianne.. your words sooth me and give me great comfort. I have been lucky as ..as soon I put this up it seems everyone here understood that feeling. So profound and loving your reply I shall not beat it up with much more than to say a deep deep thanks for being who you are and too becoming.. it gives me succor when sometimes I feel the terror of what seems endless life.. (sounds so strange but now I know a hairs breath how I could never even conceive even for an instant.. the concept of eternity, today that completely drags me down!!) lolol!
Leon Walker
Lina this expressive to the point of being magnificent!!! You have an incredible gift Lady!!!
linaji replied
Leon.. I so wish I could just see your smile tonight and say.. “Leon.. read me one of your magnificent pieces out of your new book!”.. fire is cracking and you and I have a drink of cheers in our hands! xxx
TheWanderingBoo
an incredible piece of writing, you seem to raise the bar everytime…i so enjoy the honesty with which you write, know that you are not alone :¬)
Blanchot
A very strong piece; which of us would not have given an arm to have had such expressive powers at some point in our lives.
I, however, am going to jump out on a limb and make a digression on your title. If you know this, pardon my inability to toss out one of those obscure facts that my brain inexplicably retains. “Waxing Statues” would, in fact, be the etymological origin of the word “sincere.” I speak the absolute truth. Given the popularity of statues amongst the Roman high-born, one clearly wants to produce the best product, or illusion thereof. So, certain unscrupulous artists would actually apply wax to their works so as to hide the blemishes in the stone. Someone bought one too many insincere pieces of chiseled stone and took the issue to the Senate. They made it mandatory that all statues be “sin” (without) “cere” (wax).
If you were unaware of this, I hope that it may lighten your day, even as it clears the imperfections of your art, of which there are very few in relation to your work without stone. If you were aware, brilliant title, and I am happy that I am not the only one who retains such minatue at the expense of more significant pieces of “knowledge.”
Please pardon my infinitely digressive urges. This is a fantastic piece. It poses quite a challenge. I am forced to wonder how many who have read this are now puzzling this very same issue through, having just closed the blinds. You will pardon me, if I decide that I would rather prefer more windows at this point in my life, a point that I hope starts the line, which we all know proceeds infinitely into the future. You know that I hope that you will cast aside your blinds, also and come upon a situation requiring an entirely different quality of light than that mandated by insencerity, wherever you may find it.
You certainly deserve a smile at the work that it is clear many of us are thankful you have shared with us.
linaji replied
What a darling you are … of course I read long ago may works on the Roman empire and the reading was in fiction form but I could not get enough of it.. No.. I did not know this but I read so many books.. and I mean maybe 30 .. this info could be in there somewhere.. and I had forgotten.. this has happened before and I do believe all the info just pops up at the right time.. I took the title cause I saw myself making clean what seems set in stone.. again and again.. polishing the pretense that I know a thing about anything such as eternity BUT.. unsetteling non the less!! xx.. I do believe you have thrilled me with your knowledge as this title now is so perfect as you seem to have made my morning sans the coffee.. I think you are one of the most intelligent souls.. you retain info and apply it to your arguments or comments so well and I thoroughly enjoy your comments whenever you show up.. thank you my darling Being..for BEING! X
Sally Omar
Brilliant, Magnificent, Amazing!!!!! You ROCK, my sweet Sister!!!!! xoxoxoxo
liesbeth
Being at this point is the start of new beginnings..Lina.. tis not death..tis your soul crying out to you.. i wanna live..
have been here..know these feelings all to well, including the missing of my mum..
To be able to really live is to heal old pains by reliving them.. did i like that..no way.. hated it..at least in the beginning..now i know.. there still are moments like this but now there’s the understanding of why.. so i accept..for that is the secret to get through this the fastest.. accepting every emotion..
sending my love towards you.. xx
Keith Reesor
Fantastic Linaji!! :)
valzart
Beautiful poetry sweetheART a wake up call ;} happy hippy hugglez
cosimopiro
Brilliant piece Linaji. The devil and death will always play their games but you don’t need to dance the dance…..but having danced it at least once the wiser you’ll become. The more you look into darkness the easier it gets to see and the surprises that rise therein don’t really have a say.