Sainthood

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Author: linaji
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Sainthood

I kid you not.. out of the window.. a band started to play Proud Mary as I uploaded.. now tell me if life is not pure unadulterated.. folly.. wow.

I did not know of a band playing nor did I know their playlist..

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ABSTRACT DIGITAL ART AND WRITING, Vibration in Art and Verse - VAVoom! and Writing: Persuing Happiness

It could happen now
Out of the eons that let go absolutely
I could find the glaring tabernacle that
Suits my disposition
It could be a place where I am
Revered
Reversed
and
Reinvented
I could have a crown of glory
Situated
On my head

I would sit in a non-judgmental way
Judging only me
‘Not to judge’
I would say without rancor
Or misinformation

“You do it best”
“Your are the winner, in this moment
Trust me you are”
Because here in this summer sight
There is time to play it all out
To contemplate your needs.

So today you ask;
“I need you to see me”
And so I say;
“I see you as
The Best!”

You walk away with a shining I did not
Lend you.
You walk away with a knowing I did not
Send you

I sit now in the sun and I look for that part
Of my missing self..
The part that gleans a cockeyed smile
That asks that I look to the Folly for all
My truths

And it is thus;

The folly is non committed and fluid and says
Anything my darling ‘queen of your own mind’
Is possible.
Tears steam down my face and I say
Tell me this is so
Make me a believer!

I look around and my golden chambers are empty
The sound of the answer is the echo in my own heart
The Right chamber, is fluttering…
It wants to sing
But then I think I am dying

“No No”.. I hear
It is the echo singing
(sounds like Proud Mary)
Remember Remember…
This is all folly
Beyond there is only the space between
Breaths
The breathing in and the breathing out
Where the resistance no longer exists/
You no longer exist
Except to say
you become
Acceptance
The letters are now your dreamtime.
And then
My tears become crystal balls
And inside them I see the mistake of my perception
Made TRUTH

But even there

The echo calls

Lives the Sainthood

Of

Folly.

Linaji 2009

  • Elucidate

    Elucidate

    oh wow, lina… amazing writing. your words are brilliant.

  • linaji replied

    Wow back!! thank you so much .. this feels good!

  • skinnyman

    skinnyman

    wow this is great linaji…partial to a bit of Creedence Clearwater myself…big wheel keep on turning, aint it sooo.xxxx

  • linaji replied

    Yes.. that river!! I gotta just let go of the oars..

  • Tom Broderick IPA

    Tom Broderick IPA

    really nice lina. tom

  • linaji replied

    your wonderful!

  • kjgordon

    kjgordon

    right from the heart….......so you wahini…............

  • TheWanderingBoo

    TheWanderingBoo

    awesome writing…

  • dawndavies

    dawndavies

    Absolutely stunning!

  • Judi Taylor

    Judi Taylor

    Rolling on a river ….
    You are the best !!! From erotica to folly to sainthood … whew … what a ride!

  • JasmineLove

    JasmineLove

    Oh, Lina, you are so amazing…this writing is absolutely incredible..as are you!!!!
    Jasmine xo

  • linaji replied

    Jasmine Love.. you are so special.. right here in my heart! XXXXXX

  • ArcadiaTempest

    ArcadiaTempest

    To choose beyond the sometimes limited view of our ‘moments’ in life does take a stronger belief in being in the flow of our journey – whatever that may bring – and to accept this and know we are loved by the acceptance we have of ourselves which will flourish in the connections life has for us and is bringing to us…..That my darling woman is what I take from the words you have written here….Thank you I needed your love today…this morning…what a gift.XXXXXXXXXXXX

  • linaji replied

    I keep following your comments with tears.. you are indeed my gift sweet Karen Sue.. I almost see you in your jammies and your bed and your computer.. I feel connected with you right on this spot.. and you are right.. this is a world of much amazement and for me to feel this way seems so ill suited for my journey .. but I do feel sometimes.. ‘Am I talking myself into all this ‘positive stuff’? am I off a bit and what do I expect?’ ‘What is in this for ME??’ for Gods sake I keep my nose to the ever loven fargen ‘look for the next best thought’ grind stone and most of the time ‘I feel good’.. but the depths sometimes, of pure lost.. lost ‘ness’.. like I am in the middle of a forest that I have been hiking on.. and am thinking too much of other things beside the direction I am going in.. taking turns I am not aware of.. then.. Fuck..
    (I have had this happen) you look around and you know you are so so lost. You get kinda scared and you are alone. your instincts are hightened and you feel at a loss.. where do I go now?
    that is the feeling today.. perhaps because of the body work all my doubts spring forth and I being at a loss with strong doubt hardly happens any more.. it is not much a part of my make up. But when it comes it is painful and I admit the word, ‘fear’ in some essence does come to mind.
    like I am not ever really getting the point.. as to wtf anyway..wtf are you doing LINA?

    So it is from here that I begin again to know that all’s I need do is stick it out.. cause what I remember what always happens is.. ‘my life gets better’
    Any way.. sorry I just wanted to talk.. xxxx

  • Lisa  Jewell

    Lisa Jewell

    “My tears become crystal balls
    And inside them I see the mistake of my perception”

    life changing my Dearest….

    a soulful piece
    a heartfelt journey
    a loving gift

    thank you xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • linaji replied

    Hi bebe.. don’t know why I missed these comments.. I noticed I answered some.. I swear.. I am so out of it when I start that blog.. I am infused with the baby.. tee he.. hope your day today will open you up from the cave ..perhaps you just like your life like this.. if you do celebrate living in two places.. and yes nights are tough.. sometimes.. I am letting that story go.. I keep waking up and feeling like this day will Rock the House Down!! xxxx

  • F.A. Moore

    F.A. Moore

    I was going to pull the same verses as did LisaG, above.
    You write with such spirit and insight, Lina. So I guess it’s good to cry sometimes, huh?
    Then again…. (((BIG HUG))).

  • linaji replied

    I been so blogged out.. I missed this tasty section of comments.. how utterly wonderful.. thanks so much Fran.. hope your days after the journal.. are free and fun!! lolol

  • JenLand

    JenLand

    Where the resistance no longer exists…........ this is very powerful for me today Lina. I have been doing some work with that exact thing today. Resistance born of fear and some misconcieved notion that I’m not good enough. But in my work today with that, I decided to just plunge on in and see what happens. Thank you for once again, synchronistically reinforcing what I’m trying to learn! :o) Absolutely fantastic writing!!!

  • linaji replied

    OH JEN.. I feel like I am not around enough for my old friends.. I am doing quite a bit. and well.. I sure do love it when you are near.. you certainly do know this journey. the pits brought on by who the heck or what the heck??? xx it just feels better when you are here.. today I am blessed.. thanks so much.. xx

  • Leon  Walker

    Leon Walker

    This is a really intriqueing story Lina!!! Go Lady!!!!!!!!!

  • linaji replied

    yes.. today is full of the mystery of living Leon.. and I am so glad you are part of it..Big Hugs..xoxox

  • aaronschwartz

    aaronschwartz

    Such excellent language, such elegant choice of words. Music.

  • linaji replied

    your comment made me want to read it again.. Aaron.. I am so pleased. .thank you.

  • Farras Abdelnour

    Farras Abdelnour

    beautifully webbed words, lina. love it xx

  • linaji replied

    been bloggin..out of the loop.. thanks Farras.!

  • Neophytos

    Neophytos

    The power of words ..the talent to express the inner thoughts of your soul ..drag every syllable and verse from the deep recess of you mind ,is indeed a rare gift ..for Eons the human race ,from Plato to Byron ,we always tried to instill the nicer ways of living to all us ,alas some of us have the talent to do it ,some do not..and YOU do !!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • linaji replied

    been working on the blog and I missed this aaaamazing comment.. Neophytos.. you are a prince and a very optimistic man of when you combine the two are unstoppable.. thank you for these words.. I am so blusing and smiling.. I have found the way to nice living starts NOW. XXX no matter what just happened 2 seconds ago.. again,.,, big Hugs.. xxxx

  • Keith Reesor

    Keith Reesor

    Incredible, inspirational and magical!! :)

  • linaji replied

    Big Hugs.. this is one of my all time favess..xoxoxoxo

  • Gregory John O'Flaherty

    Gregory John O...

    Wonderful piece !!!! You are you and the only you….... 1 in 6,500,000,000 + infinite before and after unique like no other… the wonder

  • linaji replied

    Wow .. Gregory.. I was so sos ososososo happy to get this sweeet didddy this AM.. I have been in the Cave with the Blog and I saw no light.. I answered a few and lost out on the many.. you are right on time with this most AMAZING LIGHT YOU SHINE IN MY HEART.. XOXOXOXO thank you is so not enough..xxx

  • Nascha

    Nascha

    Oh Lina, the music of your soul is always so lovely. xxxx

  • linaji replied

    It plays for relief!! just Relief!! lolol Love you Jane!

  • Matt Penfold

    Matt Penfold

    The “sainthood of folly”, what a wonderful concept Lina, even the “beatification bullshit” would be hard for the Devil’s advocate to knock back at times. I know you were sad and feeling down but this just seems so light and matter of fact that have to smile :-) Wonderful writing.

  • linaji replied

    Hi Matt.. I hope you and KS are having fun. You know this piece is one of my favs Matt.. I like your take on the Devils Advocate cause the truth of the matter is the Devils Advocate is someone else and not me. I am feeling such a connection to knowing.. by how I feel rather than how I think.. feeling transends.even thought… it is what takes me to ALL THAT IS.. but then.. thought comes in.. followed by all the rest.. the interpertation of our time and place and all the side diddys of perception come running to see too.. and then we got the dialog and then. .and then… so .. safe to say.. I either feel good or I don’t. and then when I don’t. ... the ‘folly’ has become to great for even me to manage.. that is the signal.. let the f*#@ Go. xxx

  • jennaloke

    jennaloke

    luv this

  • linaji replied

    My fav pic of the tower.. and here she is.. I am happy to see you jennaloke.. thanks for the fav too!! I was just tellin Matt above this is my fav piece. I even have much edit to do but I still love it!! xxx

  • Matt Penfold

    Matt Penfold

    Ahh Lina, we’re having so much fun I can hardly articulate it, thank you… ;-)

  • linaji replied

    I just took my first sip of tea for the day.. and what a day.. your comment here gave me chills and joy.. thanks Matt!!

  • Matt Penfold

    Matt Penfold

    Chills?

  • linaji replied

    lolo that’s why I wrote my next piece.. attic.. tee hee..xxx

  • hsien-ku

    hsien-ku

    to be Revered, Reversed and Reinvented . . . how wonderful that would be. You express such profound observations without heaviness, without self-importance. This is a really wonderful piece of writing.

  • Kristin  Reynolds

    Kristin Reynolds

    HA! not at the poem, but at the pure non-coincinence of it all. proud mary keep on turnin. right the heck on.

    this poem is so right on; the last few lines really did it for me.
    beautiful girl, you, Lina. cheers, sister, Kristin xo

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