Spray Me

linaji
Author: linaji
Word Count: 347
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Spray Me

Spray Me.
It’s ok.. my love is good
Spay me with malice and I shall
transform into metal drawers
pull one out
inside
plastic forks and knives
hardly weapons to kill you with
your a fool to be hurt
look inside for the feast
your bellys full of chopped liver and onions

It has been a private party
I just was not invited
I stood at the window like Oliver
drooling for the meat and potatoes
I kept feeling inside my pockets
full of crumbs from the back door
swept out by a kiss that sucked me dry

you been calling me on a line
that’s dead
you been saying the same thing
backwards
like the devil recordings of the Beatles.
Backwards saying all manner of venomous
lines like..
why did you go?
why did you hurt me
why did you love me
why is the sky blue..
why do I hurt and you don’t;
Cause remember all the tears I cried?
Daily for awhile at 1:00
and remember when I tried to be like you?
Eveything became a fantasy?
Everything became a story?
I made it up
and I kept making up more
and I was Scheherazade
then you said
Remember you said
“hey”!
We aren’t a fantasy
We real
like
Barbie and Ken

We real

I think I was a bit confused

I no longer could find me anymore

so I went looking
(while you least expected it)

your voice absent
(hypnotic I knew)

and I found me smiling
waiting at a bus stop.
I bought two tickets for me and left town
and now I am writing you
from a boat I am floating in.
Singin a Song

“Hold On” “Hold On between the lights between
the clouds”

then
“killing me softly”
(you almost did you know).

but now
I’m just fishin
and I caught me a sliver stripped bass
and I am gonna eat it
and lick my chops
and then
I am going to write you a poem
this one.

One last time.

Linaji 2009

  • Vicki Ferrari

    Vicki Ferrari

    Wow, Lina, v.moving, v.strong, I can feel the emotion jumping up at me out of the screen….
    I don’t know if this helps you, but you have helped me… thank YOU! :)

  • linaji replied

    Vickie.. you do help heeps..by your lovely smile first and the fact that you get it makes the road a little less bumpy.. thanks so much.. xox

  • Lisa  Jewell

    Lisa Jewell

    Liberation eating silver bass….I can see you fishing from the side of the boat…the wind in your hair. All cares have sunk to the ocean floor.

    I keep pinching myself when I read your work, we truly have been living a parallel life….

    Every line
    Every move
    Every attempt
    Every sigh
    Every tear

    Waking
    Disrobing
    Breathing
    Flying

    Power to you my Dearest
    A cathartic piece…from the depth of your soul…xxx

  • linaji replied

    It stuns me too.. the Scheherazade thingy..you know Dear Heart.. you know..
    I think the planets and the stars and the principals of the universe just were at their most KINDEST AND BEST .. when they put you in my life. I shake my head and say.. wow..wow.
    xxxxxxx

  • raymondoantonio

    raymondoantonio

    BRILLIANT!! YOU GAVE IT TO HIM BOTH BARRELS OF GODDESS WORDS!! BRAVO LINAJI! BRAVO!

  • linaji replied

    Ray.. you are making me want to do a shout out video!!! tee hee..Big Ass Hugs!

  • Mukesh Srivastava

    Mukesh Srivastava

    I am not a poet, but I read each and every words. I felt as if frames of lively and emotional images are passing through my vision. I liked this.

  • linaji replied

    M.. you are so awesome!! I like the way you can grasp the world around you in your gut level too.. that is what makes you one of the best photographers I know!!!

  • raymondoantonio

    raymondoantonio

    DO IT LINAJI!! DO IT!

  • linaji replied

    I will bubble mail you at some point.. we shall see.. tee hee.. your the most fun Ray!! I am off to bed now..xoxo

  • Jack Grace

    Jack Grace

    Spray me
    but not with the fire hose.
    Invite me to the party or let me go home to one who loves me
    I see her in the mirror.
    You start down the road
    looking for Barbie?
    I get on the bus to home.

  • linaji replied

    jack.. your poem is PRICELES.. as are YOU!!lololol do you have a barbie poem… I must go into more of your work.. I shall so soon.. give me a link anytime to a poem or piece you want me to see in particular ok!!!

  • gretchen .

    gretchen .

    raw and honest and wonderful. xo

  • linaji replied

    Oh Gretchen..thanks so much.. I am now to bed.. am gonna catch tomorrow..appreciate you!

  • ArcadiaTempest

    ArcadiaTempest

    Oliver twist metaphor ….brilliant Lina that scene has always stuck in my mind…And the he dared to say “more please”....I think you are saying More Of My Life Please ….XXX

  • Erhan OZBIYIK

    Erhan OZBIYIK

    WOW WOW WOW !!!
    Your heart and mind is writing wonderful with your fingers, Sister !!!
    GReat words :)
    GReat HUgs :)

  • valzart

    valzart

    Beautiful writing sweetheART way2go gurl ;} happy hippy hugglez

  • Kristin  Reynolds

    Kristin Reynolds

    Backwards saying all manner of venomous
    lines like..
    why did you go?
    why did you hurt me
    why did you love me
    why is the sky blue..
    why do I hurt and you don’t;
    Cause remember all the tears I cried?

    my god, this has been the mantra I’ve been fighting off out of his mouth for the past month. I know it all too friggin well. BRILLIANT.

    and the last verse? pure gold. you lick those chops until he’s nothing but bones on the shore, lapping up the time he lost with you. right on my lady! yeah! high-five and cheers to being one strong lady. :) love you like a sister, K

  • Judi Taylor

    Judi Taylor

    He said we are real … like Ken and Barbie …. Oh yeah, you mean the REAL Ken and Barbie? I mean … my Barbie has been dead for a long time. In fact she was never real to me. Only a doll that made me want to tear her head off …. hmmmm … perhaps I need some REAL therapy … hehe.
    One last time …. remembering everything that was …... real

  • velveteagle

    velveteagle

    I sure do inhale your pathways dear linaji.. When I exhale nothing but colors and smiles.. Thanks…
    Chuck..

  • Neome

    Neome

    Beautiful writing!

  • F.A. Moore

    F.A. Moore

    Wow, gave me chills at the last. Fantastic writing Lina! Fav.fav.fav.

  • TeriLee

    TeriLee

    I love Raymondo’s idea…would love to SEE this read…beautifully written sweet friend!! Good morning to you!! :)xoxo

  • oneperfectkiss

    oneperfectkiss

    and I hope it’s the best sliver stripped bass you’ve ever eaten Lina. bon apetit girl. x

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  • devotee1

    devotee1

    Your writing has true life, lina—love, fury, tenderness, fire, salve. Great stuff as always!

  • MrTAH

    MrTAH

    This is one wonderful write…I truly, truly enjoyed this…tah

  • billyboy

    billyboy

    Linaji… there is a brilliant storyline in this.
    And a message of hope for anyone who feels betrayed and left on the outside looking in.
    That all one has to do is hop on the bus and look for one`s self in a different place when it all gets too much to bear…
    It is your storyline since the beginning, and when it works for you or anyone else who finds release in your words it is a good thing.
    I think it is this particular piece from you that makes me feel happy for you cause I know now that you mean no harm in what you do. We are all on a journey and we all make mistakes along the way. We are blessed if we can still go fishing… there are so many millions that taste better than the last.

  • linaji replied

    And I must say.. perhaps it is not looking for more fish.. but appreciating the one you have now and all that you have had up to now. this journey on the boat was about finding Lina again. Lina made all the choices that in the end she could not resonate with. the ‘other’ was the ‘other’ and any blame is now gone from her after she spent some time with her. She knew he was not her problem far from it.. he was Magnificent.. She expressed her pain as a story that had a clue to what she knew she could no longer accept. But that does not make him wrong or bad.. it just makes it time to make a choice. When the view starts to look blamey.. she knows she is not being who she has come to desire to be. she must stop and go fishing.. and the silver bass is her heart my love not someone else.
    XXX

  • Christopher  Ewing

    Christopher E...

    explains why i dont like liver and onions!
    deep and moving writing

  • happyfeet5

    happyfeet5

    This is GREAT!!!! So many emotions and so many questions all in one poem. Oh, and I love the Barbie and Ken line. Wonderful writing. Linaji Iris

  • Keith Reesor

    Keith Reesor

    WOW Amazing!! :)

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