Rule Books

linaji
Author: linaji
Word Count: 222
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Rule Books

Just before Valentines.. for give.. this just wanted space..
erupting elements that are grabbing my heart today..

Rule Books belongs to the following groups:

Core [C.O.R.E], Feminine Intent (LIMIT TWO IMAGES PER DAY), The Healing Journey, THE SISTERHOOD and Up & Coming Writers

Her name is Lidia.
And I used to know her
I had a feeling he would go there next

He likes someone to need him and want
Him
Oh,, I did all of that gladly for awhile
But one morning I woke up and felt
Betrayed
No.
Not by him,
By me!
Cause I knew when I began to agree to all
His rules
Well I knew then that I never followed rules

So how could I say yes?
Perhaps he is right
Perhaps I am a shallow bowl
Full of….
Fruit
Overripe and rotten to the core

Why did I want to believe I could follow a rule book
When my only rule has been:

There are no rules!

Maybe I just wanted what I wanted so bad
When I smelled his sex
And his jokes were actually funny
Maybe I thought I could hold off on my
One Rule this time
Cause he felt like Sunday mornings
With pancakes and Organic coffee
And slow and willful play all day in bed

Maybe I thought I could look the other way
When my heart started to slow up and
Do that palpating thing that really is not good
For a woman my age

So he was “finished” he said
I knew the rules
And he is right

I did.

Linaji 2009

  • tuffcookie

    tuffcookie

    wow this is so moving hun :)

  • linaji replied

    hugs… and thank you so much TC!

  • Nala

    Nala

    Oh My very powerful , , , well done :-)

  • linaji replied

    Hi Alan.. thank you!! hugs!

  • Rachel Davison

    Rachel Davison

    Strong and very moving

  • Tom Broderick IPA

    Tom Broderick IPA

    great. tom

  • dpennyor

    dpennyor

    throw away those rule books!! do away with them!! there are no rules in love. just passion

  • linaji replied

    Dennis.. you just a card.. well.. I must say that it depends on who you are. this is not about judging him.. it is certainly bout my part in all this.. I am a poor judge of circumstances when I want what I want. I am a bit like the bull of the sign I was born under.Taurus.. xoxo

  • Rahul Kapoor

    Rahul Kapoor

    Really well written.. Wish I had half those skills…

  • linaji replied

    Rahul.. you begin by just writing. and you let your heart lead the way.. you just keep going.. I have seen your work.. full of passion and strong theme.. you can do this.. start with small poems.. not too long and just love all of them.. !!

  • Rahul Kapoor

    Rahul Kapoor

    Thanks for being supportive. ;) I kow I am BAD…..........!!! There are no two ways about it when it comes to writing… lol

  • Faith Donovan

    Faith Donovan

    Wonderful writing! We are giving up so much of ourselves for one hug, one smile of that ONE we would like to have… I know I lost myself. Maybe one day someone will find me again?

  • linaji replied

    Faith.. you are so beautiful and i just went over to your site.. will read more later..
    Of COURSE.. you will find yourself first.. then all you desire will follow!! I promise!! You are so findable.. and passionate..
    I am feeling more and more as each experience of relationship comes into my life I have to examine what my part was.. which because I only really know me.. the alll of what i attracted was me.

    But that is for another day with us.. Love is in the fibers of all that we are and it is so wonderful to be the focus of anothers attention. Inbetween lovers.. I am looking for mine in everything I do!! lolol and vent with words and art once in awhile!! xoxo

  • dpennyor

    dpennyor

    awww, but a warm, sweet passionate bull my dear. just need to learn to follow your instincts sometimes instead of you heart. you probably knew already but didn’t want to believe. we all learn from mistakes hopefully.

  • linaji replied

    Amen.. that dang heart!!

  • TeriLee

    TeriLee

    Oh sweet Linaji….so many things i could say, but you are saying them all to yourself huh? The is a fantastic discussion inside yourself…exposing the inner most of Linaji….now…smile..and accept it…you are beautiful, inside and out!!! :)xoxoxoxoxo

  • linaji replied

    Ok.. you did it. I am finally crying… xooxoxo

  • TeriLee

    TeriLee

    Forget the CloudFlowers….you need a bong hit! :)XOXO

  • linaji replied

    lololol ya but.. just sent you an email about a wonderful artist who just made the front page and does not know how to save it.. the page.. I wish I knew.. can you shoot it and send it.. BM? or does it have to be emaiL??

  • robpixaday

    robpixaday

    O man.
    (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
    That’s a road I walked down, a couple of times.
    Not an easy one. And it always doubles back and we end up where we started.

    But no journey is wasted, you know?

    And your powerful words will speak to others…...........

  • Leon  Walker

    Leon Walker

    When you share emotion you are at your best Lina!!! Wonderful work!!! And you are right…

  • izzybeth

    izzybeth

    Linaji, rule books smule books…

    your writing inspires me.

  • mrscarlotta

    mrscarlotta

    RULES, WHAT RULES GORGEOUS, XXXXXXXXXX

  • kreesor

    kreesor

    Who is someone else to impose rules upon you? Rules only apply if you allow them to apply.
    The Ten big ones are important to all. They set up moral guidelines to live by, define right and wrong!! :)

  • Sally Omar

    Sally Omar

    Excellent writing!!!!! xoxoxxoxoxo

  • ArcadiaTempest

    ArcadiaTempest

    A taste of tough love here??? .....handed out by oneself…...I believe a relationship can work as long as it is mutually agreeable…...You found out maybe it wasn’t so for you. TOUGH LOVE. Only really really beautiful people can act upon this…..I think you would be amazing to meet. XXX

  • linaji replied

    I jjust came from your last Piece..Arcadia.. you are simply magnificent!! I feel so much lighter for what you gave and your mind is absolutly brilliant!! So yes.. tough love all the way around.. the mutual part is interesting.. so many new elements in this one for subterfuge.. distance, (big distance) and another way of living .. opposites.. and yet.. the other side of the column there is so much that is well.. perfect.. not had before.. feels so right.. so.. anyway.. if it were not for my work here and people like to to bring about such laughing before bedtime.. I would not survive so well.. xoxoxoxoxo

  • ShadowDancer

    ShadowDancer

    The best kind of love is when you are true to yourself, when you begin to look away from your ‘rules’ is when pieces of you start withering and falling, like the petals of a rose when it’s been taken from water and left to lay…. beautiful piece sweet writer.

  • linaji replied

    SD.. You are a love of a Co-Creator and you are right.. being true to ones self sometimes is so damn hard when it seems you want everything .. just everything.. and it will not bend to your truths..
    that creates a well of despair… xoxoxoo

  • nkbellani

    nkbellani

    x

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