DON'T READ THIS
MOMENTS.. COME AND GO.. SEEMS.. LIKE.. A BUTTON GETS PUSHED AND I PANIC.. THEN WRITE AND THEN SMILE.. IN A WAY.. REVERTING BACK TO A BABYS DEMEANOR AS I AGE TO DIE (A GREAT MOVIE/STORY BY F.SCOTT FITZGERALD BENJAMAN BUTTON) .. ... ONE MINUTE LAUGHING AND ONE CRYING .. FEELS KINDA LIKE A CHAPTER THAT RAN INTO EACH OTHER..
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Core [C.O.R.E], Feminine Intent (LIMIT TWO IMAGES PER DAY), Light In The Darkness and The Healing JourneyDon’t read this if you want to keep your image of me
My own of me just crashed beside my bed
Sitting here typing longhand
With these bloody pools of bloody tears..
Up to my knees now
Assailing with lovers fears
The kind that reminds me
I’ll never have that ‘him’ of 20 years
The one that I longed for and begged for
And thought it was you!
I substitute that fantasy for the one of
Eternity
Grabbing onto the love handles
That keeps expanding before I can
Come!!
For goodness sake I am so late for myself
I am not the One..
I am in this moment filled with utter despair
The kind that grabs you from behind
Like a lone hit man
Waiting to find
My habits of life
My daily grind
Shooting at my heart just right
So none can find
That moment of death
Seemed to be quarter past two
Alone in my bed with a picture of you.
Sally Omar
Lina, You draw pictures with your words…love it!!!! Hugs, Sally xoxoxoxoxo
bearpaw
oh wow Lina… so poignant and beautiful… love to you beautiful one…
linaji replied
My MOst Sweet paw.. B… you are such a dove.. you came as soon as I needed some rescue.. that you are an angel.. and a wonderous soul.. please know I saw you there.. saw that sweet paw.. scratchen my shoulder and saying all is well.. you are in my heart friend.. thanks so much!
Raven5
Yes indeed Linda… you truely do draw with words… a picture may say 1000 words but your words paint 1000 pictures in my mind….
Just fantastic!
eon .
And Then there was more. One thing that is “THE GUARANTEE OF LIFE” is that All things will change. Do you realize your moving at 865 miles an hour…even when your standing still ” – ))
I didnt read it.. I felt it ” – P
linaji replied
Ok.. I am balling now.
TeriLee
You humble me sweet Linaji….your words so deeply moving….i feel this…so intensely….must read again…and again…
linaji replied
still crying..
David Friederich
omg, darling Lina, this is a very powerful poem (the best writing I have read of yours). I truly hope it is not so literal as I read it, because I imagine you loved dearly by someone who is your “knight”. If that is not so, it should be. You are beautiful in every way, and will “have that him of 20 years”. I cannot imagine otherwise!
linaji replied
you are quite lovely David for saying this.. seems to be feeling better.. to see my friends send such warmth.. perhaps today that is enough.. I shall try to imagine otherwise. otherwise.. tears start..xoxox
Keith Reesor
Power writing Linaji….. :>)
TeriLee
ditto xo
Wendy Slee
Dear sister….. I FEEL your place in these words…. or their place in you, as they come pouring out…..... Sending you a big hug…you are not alone although at times the journey must surely feel that way. Just remember the sunlight always shines most beautifully after a little rain.
linaji replied
xoxo accepting your hug sister..one of those sneeky days
velveteagle
You can be so empathetic of life and its ups and downs… Bravo..
Chuck..
Gregory John O...
I Like it !!
Wendy Slee
damn! don’t you just hate it when they sneak up on you like that? But then, those days are also like a big arrow, pointing to something and reminding us of that which we have overlooked. Never subtle or gentle either….... just a big old pointer at a part of us that needs more attention and TLC…..
Krisso
There is much love in this world Lina and I’m sending mine to you.
Tomorrow is a new day for us to learn and grow from yesterday. I hope you’re Ok.
xox
linaji replied
Thanks so much Krisso.. I know how much you have been though and how you have used our family wisely.. today is one of those days for me. I am well.. lonely. and this is like a foreign substance for me.. it never comes but with a BAM.. and like almost my knees buckle under me and I sob completely.. now.. my refuge is my bed and fluffy comforter and you.. All.. and sniffels.. thanks so much.. I do know tomorrow will be better.
xoxo Lovely Love I feel it.. thank you
Mary Ann Reilly
We know so little of what frames and awaits us. This poem expresses to me the presence of living in the day. Painful at time. Joyous as well. Peace to you.
theyellowfury
Wow. Chilling and well written.

linaji replied
Oh Wow Fury! thanks so much.. this feels right.. I have never felt a group like yours more than my baby ADAWG.. and for this I have tried not to feature myself toooo much.. what a complete honor your group is to me in my heART.. xox
eon .
” – )) SMILE
linaji replied
Read Comment below.. not ready yet.. went to the site and felt a smile.. but I choose more tears tonight.. the sun is setting.. and I am alone with this feeling.. curled up.. tears streaming down my face.. a familuar rush comes back to me now.. as this is how my life was when I found out the truth.. that ‘he’ did not stay static and just right.. and nor did I… lol soon but sometimes.. it hurts that the story you chased and let go of.. seems to want to have a few more bows as the curtin closes.. and it does close ..here.
Michael McCasland
You have moved me deeply, as all those who read and felt this. This pain is also felt by others only without the blood except that left our heart through our tear ducts.
linaji replied
You are right Michael… and I keep reading this and loosing blood.. lol I will do what our friend suggests up top.. Steve Hook don’t like to see a person cry too long.. but you know.. it has been so long to feel this little hidden gem.. most of my time is truly spent with my new lover.. the expanding man.. the eternal now.. but.. ohhh how wonderful it felt to hold onto the flesh and believe it was static and would stay and make all things just right.. what a full blown wonderful feeling.. thanks so much my friend.. appreciate your comment.. was able to unload more.. hope you don’t mind too much.. xox
ufosIsee
Did my poem inspire you to write this?... You have no worries, maybe setting you goals alittle high. Or move to another city… Because someone will find in you all the beauty we see… Your the softest light any man would treasure…
linaji replied
Lol.. I am so smiling.. for some reason your words are making me laugh.. Should I be jumpin on YOu.?? did you start this in my moment lol thanks for your ever so sweet words dear friend.. for some reason your writing that makes my day a bit more light… I never suffer from this malady called loneliness so how would I know my bliss with out this guage sometimes… I am breathing.. now.. xoxoxo I think I will go to a yoga class.. Love and bye for now.. Hugs..Linaji
C J Lewis
Well written and heartfelt words Lina. Know how you feel sister…went through the same thing during the change that woman’s inflictions all women face…and yes, it is terribly hard being alone and waiting for that Mr Right to come along…he will come along for you…one day and probably when you are no longer waiting/looking…out of the blue but as Hook said above…the only guarantee of life is…..change. Cheer up my friend…you are not alone…we all love you :)xoxoxo
linaji replied
Oh darling CJ.. I hardly ever suffer from this feeling.. So to write and cry about it feels somewhat refreshing.. you see I have not looked for the One.. since I had the One in India.. I was with and experienced a most extaordinary man.. so.. life has been full of many men and lovers.. but as time flys.. I use all my feelings for ART.. AND TO FEEL THIS WAY MAKES ME FEEL YOUNG. when I did pine and long for “love’ of another… Thanks so much sister… you are part of why I never do feel this.. lonely.. Love Love Love you!
C J Lewis
life has been full of many men and lovers Lucky you…wish I could say the same :)) You sound much cheerier now…good…dont’t like to see you…or anyone for that matter…upset. Love to you to sister :)xoxoxo
ufosIsee
You do that to me also… CJ.. Trudi, sleepyeyes. and Arcadia, always put a smile on me…
Colleen Milburn
Wow, linaji – this is powerful stuff – beautifully written – well done, my friend :-D
linaji replied
This wonderful arena to allow life flowing in and thru Colleen.. I am so touched my friend.. thank you.
JenLand
“Alone in my bed with a picture of you.”
Heartbreaking. Lovely.
ohhh how wonderful it felt to hold onto the flesh and believe it was static and would stay and make all things just right.. what a full blown wonderful feeling
Whoa! Very powerful stuff Linaji!
linaji replied
What a ride Jen… feeling better.. but sometimes it touches my heart so deeply for you and the others to be near.. just a upload away!! thank you.
Arletta
Mmm hmm .. as usual, I seem to have missed something. Interesting writing, though, dar; and, some of which I can really enter into the feelings of. Poor dar!
linaji replied
hello Arletta… you surely don’t miss much friend.. thanks for your comment and of being here.. it feels so good to me.xox
nkbellani
wassup, come, give me a hug n’ all will be right…...
linaji
So many elements create longing.. it is not ‘man’ nor affections.. it is seeing my youth in the body of someone else.. it is feeling like wanting not to really know anything.. cause in the end we don’t know shit.. it is feeling like I want to Break Dance and they never haD IT WHEN MY KNEES WORKED.. it is missing so much running into the wind and thinking that there waits the love of my life.. and all will be full of Loves bodys and loves plans.. future .. then Kumarji.. this passes too.. and here I am.. having written a wonderful piece and tears like a kid … feeding my soul to remind me that where I am now is so wonderful too.. that the going back is simply not going to happen.. and here and now is better than any time in my life.. so shit.. wouldn’t it be nice if I got the knowledge I do now at friggen 20.. I would most likely by the age of 30 be a guru and not need anyone any way.. so there it is.. just moments.. alls this is is just moments and moments of whatever we choose to feel.. Life is so very amazing.. and if I had not broke down.. would I have ever seen the love of you and the many I have here.. I felt so tenderly held by everyone… and the ones that only faved.. needed this poem too.. I felt kinship and glory and love and I felt me return with gifts beyond measure.. So here is what a little lonliness did for me Kumarji.. it gave me more than it took from me.. I love your careful and tender voice too.. I am fine now.. hours later.. I have spoken to my brother my niece and they too were part of the road back inside my smile.. Now I am here in my smile Kumarji.. and all is Well.. xox
Ushna Sardar
I’m stunned with your words lina! well deserved! congratulations to being featured! what a great written! bless ya! huggles and love XOXOXOXO
linaji replied
You are the best group.. for all of us.. you really read the moment it is time to feature.. I see it everywhere.. you both are doing such amazing work.. I did the tee.. but I don’t like tees on my front page.. espically as bad as mine lolol.. I will post last minuet.. thanks so much darling Ushna!!
dpennyor
oh my such powerful writing!! has me in tears for you my dear friend. you truly are a fantastic friend to so many of us here and we love you so…
linaji replied
Oh Precious precious Dennis.. I am off to bed now.. and your comment is going with me.. in my sweet dreams of caring and love.. thanks so much dear one. xox
Ushna Sardar
thank ya so much lina! we are really honoured to see you guys love Core! ...you love Core! ..we love you too sweetheart! you are such a sweet soul! kindly keep letting us know if ya like or dislike and thing about group! and please keep posting us your great work! thank you so much for you kind support and love! MWAHHH
Huggles and love XOXOXOXO
linaji replied
Just woke up.. it is 7:02 and I slept like a baby.. to a kiss and a hug and you!! thanks sweetie! HUGGLES
Ushna Sardar
And .. yeah we are waiting for your lovly tee! would love to see you there!
Mwahh
valzart
Aww sweetheART don’t be sad life is fullof surprises you never know what’s coming around that corner!!..could be Him’ ;}happy hippy hugglez
linaji replied
Hugs are accepted with great smiles.. you sweet hippi woman!
Linda Ridpath
so sad and poignant and beautiful and skillfull and certainly a picture of words xxxxx
solareclips~Ju...
Sweet Lina…... I know that there are so many hearts that need so much love right now. It seems that not only is there a flu bug going round, but breaking hearts too! I love you my friend!
Teresa P. Pelaez
Congratulations Lina!
linaji replied
thanks so much Teresa!!
MelanieSpeaks
Wonderful writing Linaji…love it! :)
linaji replied
hi Melanie.. thanks so much!!! xoxo
kjgordon
It is not an easy thing to expose inner personal feelings…...........
you have courage and spirit….....and a lovely wahini…........
linaji replied
I just caught this wonderful comment KJ..Good Man!
Karen Hazelwood
I liked reading this. Thank you.
Karen
linaji replied
Hi Karen.. I missed this but went to your site.,,,i left you a note on the hand shot..brilliant!
Joanne Bradley
Very emotional and poignant! I am always a few days late in my viewing and so hope dear heart that you are back to feeling like the strong woman you are! Beautiful words used to express a sad sentiment!
linaji replied
I hope you can read the final chapter to this most amazing day.. here
Thanks so much Joanne!!
TheWanderingBoo
heartfelt and poignant…such beautiful imagery and depth of emotions…wonderful writing…
owlspook
linaji .. look above to Kumar’s posting … just wanted to let you know you commented rather than reply to him .. you might want to fix that so he can see your reply …. you can delete this message too (grin)
linaji replied
Thank you for that.. good thing I responded in Journal… here
xoxoxo
owlspook
there have been times when as lonely as you felt I also … just know that I love you sweet sister and that your friends love you too (big smile)
linaji replied
I feel such a joy in the last few.. kinda like falling in love again with the possee crew family here.. ohh in your language.. NEST!! XOXOXOXOXO
EDGYONE
I’m becoming a huge fan of yours.one can’t help but feel what you are feeling as you write,I don’t think it gets much than that.A truly amazing talent you have been gifted with. You da girl!!!(smile)
Andrew Price
OMG I know how you feel!
linaji replied
You precious man.. where is my poem????
ShadowDancer
you know, this took me back to the feelings i got when i first read Anne Sexton… she’s one hell of a writer and will always be one of those women i would’ve loved to meet… her poetry is so open and raw and there, and you have that same gift of drawing me in with your real-ness (is that a word?)... deep stuff, Lina… deep
linaji replied
You brought back such sweet memories as the days I consumed Anne and Sylvia.. and I was in heaven with all the melancholy that was my life. I am deeply honored by this comment and you. What an incredible woman you are here and so exposed as to sharing your growth and your joy in writing. I so appreciate you.. xoxo
Andrew Price
Your poem is on its way…..later