ANGEL OF TENDERNESS
I FINALLY FOUND MY ANGEL OF TENDERNESS IN ARTIST AND FRIEND..
STEVE HOOKS GALLERY
HE AGREED TO COLLAB WITH ME AND I AM USING HIS IMAGE FROM THE PAST
THIS IS A TRUE STORY.. THE ENDING IS MINE.. HOW HE MAY FEEL YET….
He was a guest in my home one evening.. a semi famous writer in Central America quite handsome and a smile to die for….over dinner and wine for him and tea for me.. he told me the story of his wife divorced now.. and he.. they met in war time and he was almost killed.. she had hitched a ride and the next day he got pretty banged up with war crossfire.. this was in Central America back in the late 70’s..
I woke up the next day.. like straight up and picked up a pad and began to write this piece. I never saw him again but I can still see his feelings of amazement for her.. he called her Angel of Tenderness..and then his sadness showed with him feeling the conclusion of his life with her was completely mundane and it was She who had become boring and then he cried..”where did my Angel go!!”..
so went his sorrow with more cups of wine.. but that is where I come in, rewriting how I would desire his heart to see what really happened..at least in the world of Linaji..
I emailed the piece.. nar a response.to the poem.. but he did write a Thank You for the lovely dinner..
I love Life.
ANGEL OF TENDERNESS belongs to the following groups:
Feminine Intent (LIMIT TWO IMAGES PER DAY), The Red Writing Room and Writing: Persuing HappinessTHE PROMISE OF DEATH
HAD DONE QUITE A NUMBER ON ME.
I LOOKED AROUND SURPRISED THAT MY QUAZI BITTERNESS AND MY LONELY PERSPECTIVE,
TWO COMPANIONS THAT I THOUGHT SERVED ME WELL,
HAD VANISHED FOR THE MOMENT.
WHERE I THOUGHT I HAD ALL THE ANSWERS,
I MET UP WITH THE QUESTIONS.
AND THESE QUESTIONS DREW FROM ME INSIDE,
A NECTAR OF FULFILLMENT AND HOPEFULNESS
THAT BEFORE,I KNEW NOT OF.
WHEN I SAW YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT AFTERNOON,
AFTER LIFE HAD SOMEHOW GRANTED ME
MORE OF IT..
AND THE SUN WAS AT IT’S ZENITH,
(WHICH DIDN’T HELP IN MY PERCEPTION OF YOU AT ALL),
YOU APPEARED TO ME AS NONE I HAD KNOWN
BEFORE.
YESTERDAY YOU WERE A WOMEN I MET ALONG THE WAY
JUST IN FOR THE RIDE
NOW HERE YOU WERE,
MY ANGEL OF MERCY
OH BENEVOLENT CREATURE OF LOVE…
YOU BEING HERE WITH ME WAS NOTHING SHORT OF
MIRACULOUS!
DEATH’S BREATH HAD GIVEN ME EYES
TO SEE YOUR WINGS
AND HAD OPENED MY HEART SO I COULD FEEL THE
DEPTHS AND LAYERS OF YOUR LOVE.
I REMEMBERED JUST THEN
A SUMMER SPENT IN MY CHILDHOOD
WHEN I DISCOVERED THE ART OF CLIMBING TREES.
UP HIGH, ALONE WITH THE BIRDS
THAT SANG MY OWN PRIVATE SYMPHONY
I FELT TRIUMPHANT AND HAPPY.
MY NEW FOUND SANCTUARY GAVE ME A SENSE OF PEACE
I HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED GROWING UP
IN A HOUSE FULL OF EXPLETIVES AND ALL THE ‘I KNOWNS AND YOU SHOULDN’T’S’.
SWEET AFTERNOON!
IN MY ROOM WHERE I WAS TO REMEMBER IT
AS THE AFTERNOON OF MY BIRTH INTO LIFE ONCE MORE,
YOU APPEARED.
YOUR FINGERTIPS GENTLY TOUCHING MY BROKENNESS
AS IF I WERE A SAINT
NAMED
FOR SOME TRUTH I HAD GIVEN THE WORLD!
SPILLING OUT FROM MY USUALNESS CAME
A FLOOD OF ELATION AND JOYFULNESS
THAT BEAT SO LOUD
I THOUGHT IT WAS YOUR DIVINITY
REFLECTING UPON ME
AND I WANTED MORE,
MORE OF YOUR TEARS THAT FILLED MY HEART WITH
BELONGING.
BELONGING TO SOMETHING SO WONDERFUL AND SO GREAT
THAT I WAS SURE IT HAD YOUR NAME ON IT!
NOW YEARS HAVE GONE BY AND OUR LIVES HAVE BECOME OUR OWN.
YOU LEFT ME TWO SUMMERS AGO WHEN
MY OWN HEART KNEW YOU WOULD NOT STAY.
AS I LOOK BACK NOW
ON THE DAY WHERE DEATH HAD BEEN A MIGHTY TRICKSTER
IN MY SEEING SOMETHING
THAT EVEN NOW I LONG FOR.
OH MY ANGEL,
MY ANGEL OF TENDERNESS,
MY SWEET WHISPER OF TRUTH,
WHERE ONCE I WAS RAW WITH UNDERSTANDING
WHERE ONCE I WAS OPEN TO THE WOUNDS OF MY FATE
I HAVE NOW THE SCARS OF FORGETFULNESS AND THE HINDSIGHT OF A FOOL
NOW, AS I LOOK BACK TO THAT DAY AS YOU WALKED IN
ON MY DEATH BED
DISGUISED AS MY ANGEL OF TENDERNESS, MY SWEET VISION OF TRUTH…
I KNOW NOW THAT ALL I WANTED AND DESIRED THAT DAY
AND TO HOLD ONTO THROUGH YOU
WAS POSSESSED BY ME FIRST!
HOW I SAW YOU AND FELT YOU
WAS POSSIBLE BECAUSE
IT WAS I,
WHO HAD BECOME TENDER,
IT WAS I,
WHO HAD BECOME THIS ANGEL OF LOVE.
NOW AS I LOOK BACK TO THAT DAY,
I WONDER,
WHERE DID I GO?
LINAJI 2007
eon .
WOW She Likes being on Your Written Work. I love the peice you have placed her with ” – )) Respect
And a Big Hug Ciao Steve ” – )) XX
linaji replied
I DID ALOT OF REVISING.. I need to take more time with my writing.. I always say.. I will edit more when I publish.. you inspired me sweetheart to work on this..much better now and the blurb on the bottom I added for interest of where i got the idea of said piece.. Love Love Love HER… THERE IS NO OTHER SWEET STEVE!!
michael byerley
i understand completely
linaji replied
Michael.. so much appreciate you in my life.. xoxo
Erhan OZBIYIK
WOW !!!
Shes flyin again !!! :))))
HUGS SWEETNESS !!! :))
linaji replied
Taking those hugs in friend..xoxoxoox
Keith Reesor
Wow…..Superb writing Linaji and wonderful image Steve!!
linaji replied
Is she not the perfect match for this piece? oxoxox
Wendy Slee
My dear Linaji, your writing and Steve’s beautiful art, so evoke stories and memories of something lost, yet something so intangible and enduring, if we were to truly believe, we could find it again…... (does that make sense?)....
Your work makes me FEEL so much…..
linaji replied
What an utterly perfect comment Wendy. Both Teri Lee and I had to use your description of this piece to convey our feelings.. .. thank you so very much for your heartfelt insite..xox
TeriLee
I keep reading this and trying to come up with something better than just….holy crap that was incredible….but that is what i first said…then what craig said…so that’ it…holy crap that’s incredible….just everything about this….the collab…the inspiration…the journey in itself….Wendy said it grea too…makes me FEELso deeply…intensely!! great job!!! :))))xoxo
linaji replied
Been reworking and just saw another flaw.. slight.. but now better.. I really love this one too Terilee.. it gives me such a feeling of of yes.. what Wendy said.. intangible knowledge that is is all right here.. how we see one another and how we envision one another.. the feeling sometimes of loosing what once was.. thanks so much darling friend..these comments above are the ending to one of the most wonderful days of my life.. and alls I did was do bubble land and shop and cook for this new job.. yawn.. peace at last.. xoxo
cloudsdreams
you made me cry…not sad….most moving of shifts and tides in all life, all imperfections, all perfection…it is all in this…wow takes much for me to feel as this. thank you for all this you give in so positive of way. yes so identify. could not cry if not. it is putting the period…dot. to all past future and tween worlds. beautiful my friend. i am printing to put in my spirit journal. we all need this as living and breathing. wow. luv you so dear linaji. a divine presense in this. janet yes you rock my world. within and without.
linaji replied
all the heart and soul of you dear friend.. revels itself in a way that moves me to continue to pour out my joy and feelings.. I thank you with a great honor you speak so.. In your journal.. much honor I.. sending you a very big bear hug.. Your healing is apparent Janet…
xox Linaji
Ushna Sardar
awesome lina sweetheart!! big wow and love xoxoxox huggles
linaji replied
Yahhh Ushna Huggles!!!! wonderful way to start my day..
aspectsoftmk
after reading again and again..i shut my eyes and feel you here..just for me to be able to say..thank you lina..xoxo
linaji replied
Oh dear one.. All day yesterday and now today you are in my heart.. like fresh joy.. I thought of you.. how inspiring you are in my life.. and my doing now.. in food and movement is full of Terri!! I smile back to you my dearest friend.. with Love.. me..
devotee1
Another wonderful work, Lina.
“IT WAS I,
WHO HAD BECOME TENDER,
IT WAS I,
WHO HAD BECOME THIS ANGEL OF LOVE.
NOW AS I LOOK BACK TO THAT DAY,
I WONDER,
WHERE DID I GO?”
Love it all! I think these lines in particular say a volume full. All of our loneliness or sense of lacking really come from ourselves.
linaji replied
YES JOE.. this has got to be one of my most favored pieces.. I really felt the power of voice serge through me that morning.. xoxo
valzart
O Goose bumps again writer this is incredible soul searching work ;} hugglez O enlightened one’
linaji replied
Oh Val.. you are so wonderful.. I appreciate you so much.. Love you too!!
tkrosevear
words do not suffice dear sister, a beautiful collaboration ;)xoxoxox
Shanina Conway
So moving Lina, can’t find the words…beautiful…and Steve’s image is so very perfect;)
linaji replied
Thank you Shanina.. this is a very special piece for me.. glad you see her in Steves image.. the minuet I saw it I asked him..
owlspook
thank you for sharing this linaji ..so beautifully put into words (big smile)
linaji replied
BIG HUG AND ARMS ENCIRCLE YOU.. BEAR HUG.. HUMMMM
ufosIsee
There are those who write a drift disguised… But your a damn fine writer who can burrow us all in with you to a fantastic journey… Thanks 4 sharing My God it’s addicting when you write.. Kudos
linaji replied
My Ufo!!!!! you buzzed in here with such a wonderful comment I could just send yo a million CYBER HUGS!!!
EDGYONE
Just catching up on some of your older work,thank you for finding me,but i’m the one being blessed.You are what art is all about.Keep on shining that light.,Randy
Andrew Price
I don’t say much, but, bless! x
linaji replied
you are just incredible Andrew.. this is one of my most most fav pieces!!! xoxox
Lisa Jewell
I can’t begin to explain how much this piece means to me. The hours, days, months, years I’ve lived to know this.
I get close
I run away
I cling and spin
if only I could be sure all of the time
doubt weaves a wicked web
belief unpicks each thread
you are a blessing to you
to me
xxxx
linaji replied
this morning writing you and letting you know so much has been cathartic and wonderful dearest. I know it is as I wrote you this morning on how this is true in relation to just about every human we meet. It is easy to love and see another s beauty when inside we are feel thus .. It always starts with our own dang heart. However.. when i see your little glorious black and white Icon.. my day is better.. like this morning . what a ding dong diddly treat to have you for just that much longer.. my day seems brighter.. for the love of you. xxxx