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Letting Art Go

By:Linaji 2009

When I was 11 I used to cut school
Walk to the beach and pretend
I pretended I was loved
And I pretended I was beautiful

I used to sit then on the sand
And pick up shells and use them as
A phone to my heart
Worried that I was not hearing Me!

I did not know it then but
I wasn’t.

I laid back and let tears roll down my cheeks
I laid back and heard the wind sweep across my belly
I laid back and shut my eyes to the bright new day
I laid back and dreamed I was loved
And light and gay…

Sometimes when the weather was a mix of
Sun and clouds
And the smell of rain arose
I would get a feeling:
It had edges of smiles and tender pats on the backside
It had a feeling
I still get when I open my bed
And jump inside cause it is so cold
But I pull the covers over me and
Shiver shiver shiver
And laugh all the while

I never asked anyone in the world if they do this
Or did.
But it feels exciting almost sexual and free..

And, alone on the beach with the wind sand and sea
I would feel this amazing loneliness that seemed to have
Jumped off from the shoulders of this expansive joy.
Like I just made something so beautiful
And had to let it go.

That’s what I feel today
As I look at the strokes of love and the
Layers of light I just allowed into Being
Which for some damn reason,
Feels all at once beautiful
And all at once Lost.

I seem to worry
Does that mean I lost a part of me?
Have I released the latch?
The one that opens my heart
Once again,
To another realm of Creation

Linaji 2009

As of 11/2010
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I am artist always becoming…
Endless ideas pull me forward towards endless creation.

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  • linaji
    linajialmost 6 years ago

  • Sally Omar
    Sally Omaralmost 6 years ago

    Lina, Absolutely Amazing!!!! Hugs, Sally xoxoxox

  • Michael McCasland
    Michael McCaslandalmost 6 years ago

    This is a marvelous piece and fitting to the title. If I may make a statement on your statement. I was in the Navy during the Vietnam war. My last two years were stationed in the Pentagon with a top secret clearance and I saw everything working with the JCS. If we do not keep a close eye on our security agencies they will convince the president and congress that we are the enemy to be spied on for our nations protection. It does not matter which party, they are all bought and use fear to be elected one way or the other. Fight for your freedom. That is the principle our nation was built upon. Ok, I’ll step down from my soap box.


    – linaji

  • nkbellani
    nkbellanialmost 6 years ago

    A superb color blend and a massive abstract…


    – linaji

  • blamo
    blamoalmost 6 years ago

    Same Things happening in the uk ……………..Schhhhhhhhhhhh


    – linaji

  • nkbellani
    nkbellanialmost 6 years ago

    yes, very heartwarming xox

  • I think this is one of my best Kumarji.. used paint this time. you know digi paint..and strokes ..and layers upon layers.. and then the process took a few hours.. sending you a huge hugs.. and want to know all bout your goiing??? xox

    – linaji

  • Bernd
    Berndalmost 6 years ago

    This is intriguing … very nice.

  • Thanks Bernd.. I used a completely different process.. going toward actual pix paint. tee hee.. and I create my own textures now.. just found out how to do it!!

    – linaji

  • Gary L   Suddath
    Gary L Suddathalmost 6 years ago

    excellent work and comentary

  • Hi Gary.. much thanks to you!

    – linaji

  • Vasile Stan
    Vasile Stanalmost 6 years ago

    This is oh so beautiful composition Lina. I simply love it…
    So: Fear Not, Nothing and Nobody (other than the One, whoever she or he may be for you, if any).

  • You have been nothing short of fab.. I so appreciate all your comments here and your brill mind!!

    – linaji

  • PS.. for me this is my best abstract ever.. it uses a completely diff process.. and i hope I remember!! tee he..

    – linaji

  • blamo
    blamoalmost 6 years ago
  • Master of the information links.. love ya! interesting to the max!

    – linaji

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