As I write this I am sitting on the front porch watching the end of a storm pass by. I can smell the freshness that the rain has left and everything feels as though Mother Nature has once again cleansed the world of sadness.
I smell the freshly mown lawns that I had cut just before the storm arrived. The smell of grass is sweet and yet, at the same time sharp to my senses.
The ocean is also sending me a message as, on the wind I smell the sea, it is a message of Dolphins and Whales, of natures treasures and, of mermaids.
I can feel the call of the sea as it lifts my spirit carrying it away, to deep within its depth’s. It is here that I find peace. Light filters from above as I am surrounded by the Kaleidoscope of blues and greens, of the ocean and her creatures. Safe within her depths I reflect upon my life as a gentle current rocks me.
I remember both the good times and the bad. I think of the illness that has plagued me since birth, of losing my brothers and father to cancer. Of a niece who has been given twelve months to live. While sadness fills me, I think that within there is a message of lessons learnt, of knowing that they no longer suffer from pain. That, I have learnt to cope with loss and have become a stronger person because of it. They, that have gone before, have sacrificed their lives so that I could learn this lesson. Am I worthy of such sacrifice ? I can only trust that the Universe, in it’s great wisdom, has some plan for me to carry out to show that their passing was not in vain. They came, as we all do, to this planet to learn and to teach so that we who are left can move on to a higher level of consciousness. Tears spring to the corners of my eyes as I reflect and, sadness overtakes my senses.
As I sit here I feel my guides and angels around me. They cradle me as a Mother cradles a new born child….in a feeling of love and, I know that my family is still with me.