Alone……….that’s how I feel.
While people, loved ones, even children , laugh and play
gathering around me like a sea of uncensored bless
that washes over everyone with it’s endless tide.
Lost…………that’s how I remain, with no one to really share
the pain that I have inside, how I hurt , how at times i can barely breath.
Though people smile and shake my hand, I see through their facades and
know ,yes still I know , i am alone.
Nightmares ……are the realms in which i live.
Not so easily shared, as each has his or her own.
Sanity with it highs and lows sometimes eclipses into a much darker realm.
A realm where not even the brightest light can shine,
Nor illuminate the blackened wall
of what i call
There are moments………..When my spirit shouts with hopes and dreams
allowing me the to see a lighter shade of black,
some reachable thing.
But in the end,
all that is life to me,
It seems to me
that I will forever be,