Many artists have a quirk that makes them both creative in some manner and struggling in the rest of life. I am one of those artists and I have bi-polar depression. Fortunately, I’m fairly well stabilized by carefully balanced medications but there was a time I resisted them, feeling that my creativity would suffer from the “flattening” of my passions. I have since learned that couldn’t be further from the truth. Being properly in control of myself makes it possible to create without the limitations brought on by not being able to take care of my needs (like eating and sleeping) while composing, writing, or shooting. And it has freed my mind in ways I didn’t dream possible since I’d only known myself as a victim of my illness, never guessing there was untapped creativity still trapped under a blanket of depression.

If you or anyone you know is an artist and having a terrible time with depression, mania (going completely wild), constant mood swings, or locking themselves away to work far beyond what’s reasonable for a human being, please look into the possibility their creativity is also their burden and that a trip to the doctor for a blood test may make all the difference in the world. I know it changed me after over 30 years of not knowing anything beyond “create then hide”.

This fractal represents ‘the other artist’ that was me and is me no more – the artist who was a slave to his arts is quite happily a memory.

I’m pledging (now) 100% of anything this piece earns towards the mental health programs at Kaiser Permanente Hospitals.

Be well.

I’m a “scatter-focus” artist. ANYTHING may be here or roundabout my galleries. Expect nothing anywhere and you’ll always be OK. ;-)

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  • Karirose
    Kariroseover 6 years ago

    This is really eye catching. I like it. I wish my depression was this beautiful! Seriously, I can see what you were saying how it represents the “other artist.” I still have so much to learn from you…

  • Lenny La Rue, IPA
    Lenny La Rue, IPAover 6 years ago

    In time, honey. In time. You are well on your way to health and deserve to be proud of yourself!

  • sweetscent62
    sweetscent62over 6 years ago

    This is a beautiful picture… with an inspiring story. Oh to be well… I would give away my “gift” to be well.. Wendy

  • I’d never give mine away for wellness. I wouldn’t be who I am anymore. I wouldn’t be ANYTHING anymore! LOL!

    – Lenny La Rue, IPA

  • Cazzart
    Cazzartabout 6 years ago

    Speaks to me in many ways…. great work Lenny :)

  • Thank you and bless you with your challenges as well. :-)

    – Lenny La Rue, IPA

  • Lisa Ray
    Lisa Rayabout 6 years ago

    Lenny this a really interesting image :) Great!

  • Thank you very much, Lisa. Your work has moved me to work harder on my attention to detail and black and white photography. You are GOOD!

    – Lenny La Rue, IPA

  • Julie Everhart
    Julie Everhartover 4 years ago

    “Fractal Universe ":

    banner created by: Julie Everhart

  • Woo hoo! I can see the banner and I know why I can’t otherwise: yup, that blasted filter on my employer’s computer network. It’s not like banners are PORN, damn it!

    – Lenny La Rue, IPA

  • rocamiadesign
    rocamiadesignover 4 years ago

    This is a very bold statement, Lenny, and well done! I am bipolar too, as well as others in my family. I’ve tried to convince them to keep taking their medications, but they also feel that it stifles their thinking and creativity. I have one son, who wants to take the medicine, but it’s extremely expensive and he can’t afford the deductible on his insurance.

  • Thank you. :-) The chief aspect of my renewed Teamster’s Union 2-year contract was retaining our health care coverage as it is now. Without it, I wouldn’t be here today because I need more than $800 of medication a month: roughly 1/10th more than my rent.

    I also don’t know what I would have created before the illness probably ended my life by my own hand. Would I have created a world-renowned masterpiece or stayed slumped over like the figure in this fractal? I just can’t think of things like that anymore while I take my meds and type, shoot or compose. By the Grace of God I am alive and that’s all that matters. Besides, art isn’t about masterpieces as much as it is about being allowed so simply be the artist in you.

    You and your family be well along the journey. :-)

    – Lenny La Rue, IPA

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