Hello everyone ! :)
I’ve been absent for quite a while now, well….on December 4th, I had Bilateral knee replacement surgery. Both of my knees were removed & replaced with titanium, I believe. At any rate, right now, I’m in rehab & I just thought I’d let everyone know why I’ve been so inactive as of late.
I’ve had bad knees for years & suffered with increasing pain for years….30 odd to be exact. I was in college at Kent State, when I got the brilliant idea to jump down a flight of stairs trying to catch an elevator. It seemed like a good idea at the time ! Anyhow, I missed that elevator. :oD But gained a severely torn up knee. 2 more accidents later just managed to increase it a lot. Then came marriage & a baby, & by the time my son was 2ish, 1976-77, I ended up having to have surgery on it. Back then, their answer to the type of damage to my knee was simple ….just remove all the cartilage. So…I’ve been walking around with no cartilage, just bone against bone, for over 30 years on my right knee.
My left knee had an accident & a small surgery of it’s own, but over 30 years of over compensating it’s become severely damaged as well. Much much debilitating pain later, I finally decided to take my doctor’s advice & get the surgery. So, here I sit in rehab.
I find that ……being able to endure pain for decades, until it wakes you in the middle of the night in tears & practically screaming from the pain before you decide to do something about it …….doesn;t make you brave or noble or stoic. It makes you foolish that you didn’t listen to people earlier.
The doctor told me that one of my knees was so badly deformed that the one leg had actually started to bow & he had to correct the leg. And I find now that my left leg is considerably weaker than my right leg & in order to walk straight…both legs & knees pointing straight ahead like they should, I have to think to myself to walk “pigeon toed”. To mentally force my feet to point themselves inwards, in order to walk straight, if that makes sense.
So, I need to relearn to walk in a sense.Which I’m doing, slowly. I can walk 200ft, with a walker, though I freak out yet at steps. Anyhow, I’m here, sorta sometimes. Everyone’s doinf fantastic work as always n& I miss you all !
I’m in a very small 25 bed hospital where all the nurses are sweet as can be & I just met the cruelest Physical Therapist of all but she was just doing her job. :o) Some days are better than others, today was very bad. shrugs It happens.
Anyhow, it’s time for bed so g’night everyone ! I miss you all ! waves