compress my body with your faint stare
you dont realise the effect of your eyes
puncture my soul, i have butterflies
the butterflies have teeth.
i cradle my silly frame
listen to myself blink, eyes closed
smell the lonliness, i reek of it
and somewhere, a piano plays just for me.
i just want to be held.
sweet pea, your non existence is my non existence
i am a background noun now
a splintered rocking chair left in the sun.
i find some calm in all the chaos
the insanity takes a silent breath
hold your applause for the end please
until my face is pushed deep into the dirt.
my heart waits up for me
leaves a light on for me
i walk in ignorant silence, push past
and i hear it weep as i try to sleep.
my bizarre intensity evolves into annoying familiarity
tired of my own woeful company
i whistle cheerfully as i leak from my eyes
something important inside me has died.
carry around my own brick wall
drag behind me, my eyes on a leash
beside me, an associate, i forget your name
im no good at this reality game.
the hoax has gone too far
the mask cannot be removed
i wish to the wind, to the stars in my mind
it will all be alright.