Have you ever cried yourself to sleep alone,
Next to the one who loves you?
Choked on the words you wanted to say,
In front of the one who won’t judge you?
Have you lost yourself trying to become perfection,
For the one who will take you as you are?
Stitched the pieces of your soul back together,
Because of the one who would never break your heart?
I’ve started to rot around the edges,
and the poison is seeping to my core.
My tears should be like rain on your heart.
Where there’s thunder, there’s a storm.
I stand up,
But I just stumble.
I close my eyes,
But I can still see.
I clench my fists,
But my knuckles crumble.
I hold my breath,
Till I remember to breathe.
Despite my failure the thunder remains,
The day is coming where there will be no doubt.
The words come rushing to my tongue,
But I was taught not to speak with a full mouth.
I hope my torment was worth it for you,
I’ve realized it’s your favorite game to play.
But all kittens will turn into tigers,
and I’m finally learning to stalk my prey.