Greetings everyone who watches me, how ya all doing out there? Look, I owe ya all an explanation and an apology for not commenting or even being around here lately….life sometimes throws us some really big curve balls and well, March was of no exception at all. My health has really gotten pretty crappy and well, things in my personal life pretty much crumpled by the wayside with a lotta dreams I had….so it has been a very trying and stressful last month for me. What little time I have had, I have tried to get out and shoot some….though the last few times was odd…for once, I really didn’t feel like shooting when I was out clicking the shutter. I simply couldn’t relax my body, soul, & mind like I usually can. I would sit there and try to take a shot and my hands would just start shaking from being so stressed out :(
I am slowly picking up the pieces though, but it is going well, just that, slowly. I am starting to find myself again and have learned a lot about myself, who I am, and how I stand as a person. I have been through a lot….and at times I just felt like disappearing and moving to somewhere in the middle of Wyoming. I came damn close to doing just that. If it wasn’t for my health, I probably would have. To those of you who watch me on DA, some of ya might be able to guess what is going on in some respect as you are a lot more in the ‘know’ than RB folks…and you might be right. Just please don’t note me asking me what’s up…I really find it hard to discuss and even talk about at this point. I just need healing…badly.
So that is why I haven’t really been around much….sorry to bore ya all with this journal entry, but I figured ya all had a right to know. Those of you whom noted me asking me where I was at, thank you…just for caring :) I do have a lotta shots to share with ya all and if I inundate your message center, please forgive me. But I am hoping that these latest images might sell well…we’ll see I suppose.
Anyways, just thanks for listening, I feel better since writing this.
Now off to find my little piece of heaven, nirvana, tranquility, and serenity…somewhere. Where that journey takes me…I do not know…..
—-John
Scott Ruhs, 6 months ago
Hope things come around for you, John. Take care and feel better!
Jay Ryser, 6 months ago
You’ve been missed. I hope things get better for you.
Nick Johnson, 6 months ago
Thats too bad man. When life gets to you give it a good laugh. Ignore the negative at all costs, stay active if possible, occupy the mind and think positive. No matter how bad it can be at times. I am guilty for letting things get to me from time to time and a good laugh always seems to help. Let eveything know you are still alive.
Cadence, 6 months ago
I’m so sorry to hear this, John :( Please take care and remember that you are cared about by many… I care, even if it’s from all the way across the internet and a few states :) Big hug!
Dorothy Venter, 6 months ago
By writing this you are already on the road to getting well again. And I can underscore collectiveone. I’ve read that a good laugh out of the stomach for 15 minutes every day can heal not only your soul but also your body from illness. There is no better medicine. Try it, it costs nothing.
Carolyn Bishop, 6 months ago
John,
Wishing you peaceful creativity and a speedy and complete recovery! I always enjoy whatever you have to share! Thanks!
George Lenz, 6 months ago
get well… I’ll pray for u…
TheiaPhotography, 6 months ago
you know my thoughts are with u, ur a real gem of a man and u will come through it, just takes times and patience, but u know that
we all love you
Marsha Woods, 6 months ago
Hello John,
Sending wishes for complete healing in your life.
Peace,
Marsha (aladyx)