Holding the mirror up to my raped face,
I see a broken girl looking back at me,
Crying and screaming at me,
Disgusted at who I have made her,
Of who I have made me,
She screams at me that I’m a dirty whore,
With my top too low and my skirt too short,
She yells that I lie to her too much,
She smashed the mirror again,
In this darkness, I sit in my shell,
Consumed in emptiness in my own little hell,
Her whispers are hot liquid in my ears,
Her lies are a disease she infects me with,
And than she smashes the mirror
I wake up with my clothes ripped off,
My makeup up smeared again,
And she’s crying again,
I drink too much,
I smoke too much,
She yells that I lie to her too much,
She smashed the mirror again
In this darkness, I sit in my shell,
Consumed in emptiness in my own little hell,
Her whispers are hot liquid in my ears,
Her lies are a disease she infects me with,
And than she smashes the mirror
I look at her and she’s looking at me,
A young little girl inside of me,
She doesn’t understand the woman I’m trying to be,
I tell her when I take off my fake hair,
My silicon breasts, my plastic nose,
My fake eyes and plastic bones,
I don’t know who I am anymore,
I’ve been raped from my identity,
She looks back at me,
The little girl inside of me,
The little girl I used to be,
She’s showing me how innocent I used to be,
How innocent I want to be,
How happy I used to be,
How unashamed I use to be,
I ask her to trade places with me,
So she can be the woman,
And I the little girl,
And retreat inside myself,
Take back everything that has been raped from me,
Take back the lies I fed her,
The hurt I have done to her,
The hate I fed to her,
Little girl inside of me,
Come back to me,
I don’t want to be this,
This whore inside of me,
This plastic freak outside of me,
This guilty woman,
I want to be the little girl inside of me,
Before it’s too late,
And I forget everything I use to be,
Alone I break………..
ALONE, I BREAK
Just a little story about wanting to be little again
hikickry, 2 months ago
yeh, you have some pretty strong messages
kisstheweak666, 2 months ago
lol. people prob think im a nutjob writing all this sad stuff. but im actually not. this is just what i write best about. sad stuff. i won lots of awards inhigh school for writing, even the english studies subject award once :)