hollow

got to get to the stars tonight
just so i can breathe
breathe in everything in sight
the reflection belies the truth
and i can’t find my white suit
i took it to the cleaners
started feeling leaner
til the pockets filled with rockets
as I drowned in skies of blue
and the star in my eye …it cried…
I think my pain left me, it said
‘so long and goodbye’
and I sucked it all in
and I spat it all out
and I said to myself
I’m tiring of the self doubt…yeah
tired of the self doubt…yeah
what what, what, where and why
I sighed to myself, what what, what
where and why
and then again, I sigh….
As you know, there was this butterfly
and it was flying really high
the colours weren’t like rainbows
the colours weren’t like cellophane
they were black and white and my skin turned bright
but I wasn’t here to stay and I lacked some insight
and the sky was saying “where you goin’ kid?”
and I said “I’m leaving this all behind me”
and then the sea divulged a secret
a dolphin and a whale spoke in tongues
while they visited my tombstone
but I wasn’t there, I’d left a long time ago
I hitched a ride on a great white hope
and I sung a song, it had a lot of scope
but it wasn’t enough and I didn’t dig it much
I lost my dignity and lit the match to see me
where I’d left my integrity
I’d filtered so much of myself
I didn’t recognise the me that I’d seen
sitting on the shelf
and I thought I was someone else
I said ‘hello’ and she seemed to mimic me yo
and that was when I realised I was hollow, hollow
and that was when I knew I’d dropped my halo
and was treading the smashed remnants of it
into my cut feet, and they bled on the stones
in a sort of torment, torment,
hollow, hollow

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Comments

  • timbuckley
    timbuckleyover 1 year ago

    good writing

  • thank you Tim

    – © Karin Taylor

  • Mui-Ling Teh
    Mui-Ling Tehover 1 year ago

    Wow very intriguing Karen – the magic of writing allows greater room for mystery, and I love how the beginning was full of questions, and only in the end we realize what kind of figure is thinking these thoughts. Also really loved the rhythm.

  • thank you Mui-Ling so much, for reaching out and reading my words as you have, and blessing me with such thoughtful, insightful depth in your response

    – © Karin Taylor

  • gillsart
    gillsartover 1 year ago

    Excellent imagination !

  • Thanks so much Gillian :)

    – © Karin Taylor

  • Loui  Jover
    Loui Joverover 1 year ago

    beautifully paced and although written in a verse like joyful cadence it has much soul bearing and serious dilemma entwined with the fantastical imagery that can’t but appeal to a multiple of personal levels.

  • thanks so much for the depth of your insight here Loui, I think you’re spot on there with what you noticed or observed, that despite the upbeat tempo, there was something more serious underlying….I’m so happy you were able to read and enjoy it, thank you again, I really appreciate it so much :)

    – © Karin Taylor

  • Arco Iris  R
    Arco Iris Rover 1 year ago

    I could very easily relate to this one. There will be days that the smallest of things will just make me cry or just turn to jelly not knowing what to do.There are other times that I if I mess up I’ll say, well then clean it up. We are all full of doubts and sometimes we do get sick of it. I always tell myself that tomorrow is another day. Usually that helps. Love your metaphors and it was well written.

  • I’m so glad that you could relate to it Iris, I hear and empathise with you and what you are saying, because I am of the same experience. I like to say, ‘this shall pass’….‘this intensity is not forever, just wait it out, it will pass’ and I have notes up around the house to remind me that this will pass…because sometimes, the intensity outweighs the reasoning and I need reminding :) Thank you so much for sharing your insights and experience with me, I really appreciate it :)

    – © Karin Taylor

  • Sushikant S.
    Sushikant S.over 1 year ago

    nice

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