The gas worker

Whilst I was standing at the lights today on my way to work in Brookvale, as he does most days the gas worker ambles my way.

Eyes downcast beneath a truckers cap, picking his way along the footpath past the house with the Aboriginal flag in the window. He trundles along in overalls blue and stained as you might imagine a gas worker wears. His hands tell the stories of many labours found at the end of a shovels handle, a hammer’s determination or a sheet presses hiss.

A pot belly sticking out from under a round face filled with greying hair and to many lines. He looked like a man who’s radio’s both inside and out were constantly tuned to the classic rock 70’s of the Bay City Rollers and Sweet’s sounds colliding with ZZTOP. Many afternoon’s watching sports highlights spent in a tired recliner salvaged from the clean up with a few to many stains on cushions he never bothered to hide, and with a tallie in hand never really cared to.

Strange looks and uncomfortable stares start to flow his way from those of us waiting for the bus. I smiled, after all he is still human still a man in the world deserving of dignity and respect. Words are bubbling forth from his lips not going to anybody in particular just floating back in through the hairs in his ears to be found or lost again in the 70’s stations playing in his head. Is he crazy? his internal dialogue running out needing to be heard, or does he just enjoy his conversations with himself?

Maybe that’s a secret just for him and all other “crazy people” do they see something we all do not? some greater picture that we cant see being so self absorbed, not listening inside to who we really are.

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Many years ago while waiting for the bus to work in sydney I watched a man who may have been homeless (though perhaps not) amble along as he did most mornings to a destination I did not know. Talking to himself at times quite animatedly moving along as if the rest of the world did not exist. many many times I had caught the bus and sat there screaming inside to myself what are we all doing this is crazy. none of us looked happy to be sitting there all I could think is what madness has taken us all and stuffed us into this tin can on wheels?. why do we do this to ourselves day in and day out. no real world rationalisations could make me ignor the fact that I felt like if I did this much longer parts of me would die inside (the fact that I was working mostly with hideous people didnt help either). some people love the commute, their 9 to 5 jobs in cubicles with coffee breaks and after work drinks, and at times I can see there point and good luck to them. for me it just seemed so morbid so many unhappy faces awaiting the ride to the everyday suffocation of what we were calling a working life. maybe the “crazy man’s” gift was his message to us, to those of us who didnt want to be there. listen to your internal diologue listen to what your heart is trying to tell you about what you are doing and probably then things might not seem or actually be so crazy, and we may all live inside again like we used to.

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