For most of my life I focused on my mother as an EGO. Not until I focused inward, shed my own EGO and found my soul could I see her soul. When I did this I stood in awe. For she indeed was a very advanced soul. Her love and compassion crossed all boundaries. For the last 10 weeks of her life we shared this (EGO REMOVED) soul love with each other.

Now, I reflect back on her entire life and I see her soul struggling to emerge. Even in the midst of chronic alcoholism, I see clearly now (Ego removed) what a saint she was even in those chaotic days.

The last 2 decades of her life were free from alcohol consumption. During this time I was unable to see her true soul that emerged after the drinking stopped.
My brother and sister shared many years with her during that time. I was busy
running from myself. No regrets. She and I love each other and chose each other as mother and son before we came into this life.

Thank God I shed my ego in time to fall in love with my mother. That union blessed us both. It enabled her to pass away in peace and comfort with spiritual
fulfillment in her heart. It has enabled me to step out into the world with a whole healed heart.