Sitting in the sun as tears melted my face
I tried not to look I tried not to gaze
The shifting circles of water along the edge of the bed
Merrilly changing colour a spiralling watery thread.
Heat was surrounding my lonely ordeal
My head pounded softley, only pain could I feel
Circles and spirals swirling around
I stood up and fell back awkwardly onto the ground
I wrote her name into the sand
I stole a glimpse and looked around
My heart beat ended in that place
Her death my life I still need to face
The tree stood still amongst this scene
The same tree was the last that Jasmin had seen
Then the sun drove me away
but i wanted to stay
Forever.
Arthington RIP Jasmin x
Visiting the place where Jasmin died. An inspirational place, a quiet beauty spot, hard to find with very few visitors.
I am at the beginning of a long journey. A journey of forgiveness and understanding. A sojourn which I must undertake to be able to love and live again.
Jasmin Cai Neville 1989-1997 rest in peace my beautiful angel.
Jasmine Neville my daughter and Charlea Fox one of her school friends drowned in the River Wharfe at a beauty spot near Arthington, West Yorkshire UK in 1997 .
I will continue to change her face throughout my life.
The canvas stays the same the memories images and emotions forever alter.
This represents my journey, her ever changing face reflected through many different memories and painful emotions. Just trying to keep her memory alive.
The hope is one day to finish her portrait to help me finaly accept a kind of peace within myself.
More images of this work in progress are contained in my port folio on the profile page.
paco, about 1 month ago
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oscarelizondo, about 1 month ago
Hard to leave a love one. Nice poem to fall back on and remember those good old times. You did a great tribute with this one. Great flow in your lines, keep the work coming, GreatTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Joanne Marie Shaw in reply to oscarelizondo’s comment, about 1 month ago
Thanks Oscar,
I need to be in a certain mood to write, thanks for your encouragement once again
Antanas, about 1 month ago
very good
Carson Collins, about 1 month ago
Ouch! Good stuff. I recognize the place.
Tony Ryan, about 1 month ago
To lose someone so cherished must be so enormously hard to come to terms with. I think it is wonderful that you are still searching deeply into Jasmin’s passing and the affect it is having on you. I am sure that the more you open your mind to the pain that Jasmin will be better able to communicate with you and help direct your life to peace and joy.
Joanne Marie Shaw in reply to Carson Collins’s comment, about 1 month ago
Thanks Carson for taking the time to look. x
Joanne Marie Shaw in reply to Tony Ryan’s comment, about 1 month ago
Thanks Tony your words mean a lot to me x
JenniferB, about 1 month ago
very real, honest, heart-felt writing Joanne, a real tribute to a tragic memory, I hope your writing helps to write away some of your pain.
xox
Roscoe Davis III, about 1 month ago
nice poem.
Joanne Marie Shaw in reply to JenniferB’s comment, about 1 month ago
xxx
Joanne Marie Shaw in reply to Roscoe Davis III’s comment, about 1 month ago
xxx
Mariaan Krog, 7 days ago
A special pice of writing Joanne. Your healing process produces great artworks my friend. You are in my thoughts.
Denis Dalby, 1 day ago
I think the last four lines sum up your feelings in a very poignant way Jo. Such special words.
Joanne Marie Shaw in reply to Denis Dalby’s comment, 1 day ago
Thanks for commenting Denis xxx