My Eyes have opened,
I have seen the Light,
Realizing I have a Problem,
That Everyone else was right.
Time to come Back to Reality,
Wake up and Look at my Life,
I have wasted so much time,
Being someone I’m not – Getting into Strife
I don’t seem to care anymore,
I hate feeling like I do.
I have missed some Important times,
Because of what I put Myself through.
I can’t Replace what I’ve missed and Lost,
Unfortunately, that’s a fact I will soon see.
But to Start afresh and Find Myself again,
In Time, some things may come back to me.
Betraying My Family and Friends,
Was never my Idea of Fun.
The Lies,.. The Treatment towards them,
How could I?.. Why?.. What have I done?..
I can Picture my Worst Enemy,
Hating Myself is a Terrible thought.
I could’ve been Somebody, Had so much,
But I turned my back on what I was taught.
When all my Problems Started in Life,
I turned for Advice and a Solution.
My Family and Friends were always there,
But I still wasn’t Happy and took a turn…
..The Wrong one!.. My Solution was Worse.
In Time, it Confused my mind, Even more than Before,
I was a Fool!.. As Drugs do that.., It Feels Great..
..But Gets Scary when Urging for More.
Starting out, I could Control Myself,
Not Realizing, it was taking over my Life.
My Next Hit, Became my main thought,
Nothing Else Mattered, I didn’t seem to Care.
Nearly Everything I said was a Lie,
Nothing I said made Sense or had Meaning.
Everyone Gave up, Lost all Trust and Respect,
Even My Family Started turning their backs.
Looking Back, I see that Evil Image, I Feel Disgusted!.
It’s a wonder anyone spoke to me.
I Used and Abused Everyone I cared about,
While Changing into someone, I never thought I could be.
It was like I had something to Prove,
Yet, I was always Trusted and Respected.
While trying to be strong, my whole Attitude Reversed,
Thinking I was Better, No-one can Hurt me!.
… I COULD NOT HAVE BEEN MORE WRONG !!
“ I WAS HURTING MYSELF IMMENSELY ”
It takes time to gain Trustworthy Friends,
I know, I used to be one…But Lost all for a Drug.
Realizing all Respect gone, I see a lot of Work ahead,
I can’t Believe, I let a Drug control and Rule my Life.
Wishing I had Opened my Eyes sooner to see what I was Losing,
As seeing the Loss Now, Hurts me, to know I’ve hurt them.
Proving Myself sane again, will be a hard task!
But No Matter How Long it takes or What I must do,
I Keep my Word to go Forward….and
….Never Give Up Again..!
“True Feelings Revealed about an Addict in Pain”