Shot taken by Adriana Glackin
in Sydney December 11 2010 at the “Empowered Beauty Workshop”
I generally don’t like getting full face shots taken of myself. I tend to automatically become self conscious and shut down my look. I feel I hold a mask of non-acceptance of who I am and the beauty I can show. When I feel uncomfortable what can be triggered through past patterns and hurts, is this hard energy/physical shut down. This holds me stagnate within the moment, thus locking me away of being present with whatever is going on.
At the same time I wish to get good shots taken of myself. With the emotional and mental processes of the two different types of energies going through me this can result in physically distorting my face and body. The feeling inadequacy comes across and represent in the shots being taken. The conflict and inner battle that is being played out pressures the results towards me not being shot at my best.
I have come to accept my discomfort and lack of self awareness on an energy and emotional level in photography. Through understand these aspects and why they happen I can trust the process more from a space of inner peace. This then brings out the beauty I hold.
Not just in photography but through all aspects of my life this surrendering within myself through understanding brings me into true enjoyment with whatever I am doing in life.
I do like to get good shots of myself but it is not the end of the world if it doesn’t happen. The most important thing is the energy relationship I have within and outwardly in life. However with this is balance I will get rewarding shots and enjoyment in life.
It has been fulfilling to see face shots of me showing trust, openness and a play of self freedom between me and the photographer. Thank you to all the photographers who attended 11/12 December 2010 Sydney workshop and especially to Tony for his constant patience and passion to bring out my best.