I am suddenly becoming aware of just how much I allow myself to become robotic in my everyday activities. I know I rush through life like an Express Train. My mind finds it more comfortable to hide my insecurity and fear of rejection behind a false screen of unnecessary activities.These become robotic but to my mind it is because I feel it will bring me a reputation for success and perfection in life. However I am now beginning to see the real reasons behind my behaviour and that is the insecurity I have kept inside my body and mind. I realise now how I must be honest and free with myself and not run from the past. Have faith in myself and not be frightened to appear a failure in the eyes of others.
I feel you lose love for yourself and others when you are running from the truth all the time trying to impress the World around you. The true value of life is to not live for reputation and validation in a false Comfort Zone. Living this way only shuts out the wonderful feeling of love and contentment for everything and everyone around you.
I believe honesty and faith in your true self are the keys to free yourself from the restriction of the pain hidden inside your body. Once we freely embrace all that is within we attain acceptance and peace with ourselves and the world. It is very true that what we choose to think and do is what we become but unfortunately we more often than not put our values in the wrong direction.
I was drawn to writing this observation of my life as I became aware of how much I was rushing through every day. Think many of us are not aware to our own insecurity. As such this rushing is an avoidance of our inner pain. This then has us miss so much joy in our everyday lives.