Hold the Mayo

Hold the Mayo

He dripped with sexuality when in a group. One on one, he was cold, rejecting and insulting. I ran his errands, swept up broken glass when he fell and listened to screams in the night from memories, dreams, imagined scenes or as he commonly called them, simply, “They.”
They were out there. They were coming. They were communicating from outer space through toilet paper tubes which he refused to throw away leading to an odd collection of plastic bags filled with empty toilet paper rolls. Filling closets. Stuffed under beds. Under counters.
If in some fit of cleaning frenzy I ever even thought of throwing them out I would stop myself before I got out the door. It was like throwing away another’s flag or religious icon even if I didn’t believe in its significance.
“Hold the Mayo,” he said to the waitress. He was behind broad, black sunglasses, a baseball cap pulled down low on smooth white skin and black, clinging clusters of hair.
Which I longed to touch. Which I longed to touch. Which I longed to touch.
I chuckled, knowing that he would soon call her back to revise his order. Again and again and again and then finally say “Forget it, I’m just drinking tonight.”
Always the same.
He said something charming.
I laughed.
He got louder.
People joined in the conversation. It became quit festive. Then a fight would start creeping into the conversation. I would overhear people saying things such as, “What’s he mean by that?” and “That’s not true.” I would pay and shuffle us out the door.
In the car he would be silent.
At home he would not speak. Conversation was inadequate, trivial and unnecessary. He knew what I was thinking. I could never fathom his thoughts in a million years. The walls were both a prison and a security blanket.
Because it was there that “They” would be able to find him.
It was also there that I lived.

This abstract is acrylic on canvas 30”x60”

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